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promise reinstate >>>page1 NEURO>> all are from main DIARY
write ups & READ AS RIGHT ACROSS THIS PAGE... as SNIPS TO
SNIPPETS EVERYWHERE>>>& much i miss is imposs to find the time
to clip of all>> but do my best to bring a picture... as is accurate...
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my world for of now so
very difficult>> but i want of you to know.. as those at google
& at youtube.. i am so aware of all you do..>>> & >> tatu.. from my heart to
yours...> for all of care.. i really do appreciate..
& for the snow on
video..>> whoever did of this.. was the kindest..>. as for christmas..
i hope you all had happiest...>> kiss kiss Liz
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>>> 
but today at hosp.. a new addition to my family.. as made me very happy...>>
to meet ... to hold >> to see>>>> to cuddle HE..>>> & so is not as you do
think>> HIS COLOUR IS as PINK>>> & I AM SO IN LOVE WITH HIM... as gifted
given.. from those have come to love so very much... at my own
hospital>>> & to say as tatu too>> for all the love they gave... was what
did need... to keep me fighting...>>> & only one name will do...> as FIT>>
as be correct..> HAPPY... he did make... & HAPPY he will stay.. HAPPY>> will
as be his name>>> & as is little Hippo.. who is cuddliest & sweetest...>>
> & is
now as curled up beside.. & sleeping tight... >>>> & for those who keep me
strong >>>>. how can I as then repay.. all of love this Christmas day...>>
except to say>>> i recip with ditto ALWAYS...
&
family >>> my friends.. as>> also>>> < have been so wonderful>>< their love
>> has...>> filled my heart as to capacity>>> ..>>>
 &
so delivered wrapped >> as beautiful>> did melt my heart... when xnsn
delivered him... as to my arms... >>> so had to take a photograph b4
unwrapped...>>> to capture as in time...>> how perfect... be... >> as
parcelled up with so much care.. he still could breathe in there...>> & so
HAPPY now is living with.. as on my bed... beside as said.. & for company
has got 3 little bears... as one as gifted from my darling sis..>>> as baby
bear... >> & there is mummy daddy>> ... & Goldilox... they now as share..
with >>> my little hippo >>>who is PINK>>>>>>
& did say to those as there this day..>> taking care>>> that i promised i
would share>>> all of love as gifted>>>> as with this world>> >>>& so my
little pink hippopotamus he will bring much love to all>>>>> >>>
&
lyrics sorted as were MISSING.>>>.just
in time i will save the day>>..
how
appropriate.>
>>>> you
keep me standing tall help me through it all am always strong when you're
beside me.. i have always needed you I could never make it alone...i
am someone who will fight for your honour... i'll be the hero that you are
dreaming of... we'll live forever... knowing together ... that we did it all
for the glory of love..like a knight in shining armour from a long time
ago...
just in
time i will save the day>>>
take you to my castle far away...>>> i am someone
who will fight for your honour... i'll be the hero that you are dreaming
of... we'll live forever... knowing together ... that we did it all for the
glory of love...
 merry
christmas amen kiss kiss...
STAY WITH>>>>>>>stay happiest...
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.>&
TO SAY... AS TATU.. my own SPEAK>> AS BIGGEST SHORTHAND THANKYOU>> SONGS OF
MINE>>> as 1 to 7... MADE IN HEAVEN... ALL ARE LIZZIE LANE... frontpages
youtube singer songwriters >> THIS IS ACCOLADE OF HIGHEST.. PLEASE BELIEVE>>
TO SAY >>> with absolute>>>. this girl can WRITE AS DYNAMITE>> & ENCOURAGE
I TO FIGHT
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but
be sure that there is much I NEVER>>. talk about not even to my diary>> is
as said is personal>> as one to one to my GP..>>>>>>>> as whatever he does
ask of me>>>>> i answer truthfully>>> so if cd57 does not as elevate...>
fastest my immunity>> is still critical>>>> oh>> i PRAY >>> AS NEED to be as
better>>>> as would plead to do of cef myself>>> if only was allowed of
it...>>>>>> & if ever anything of medical>> that is as for my own
doctor>>>> > to as ask... as his prerogative>>.. in my situ... as so necess>>>
to have as all complete as watchfulness..>>>> as of full protect>>>> &&
never do i say... of any>>>> listen...>>> of my personals>..> as of
problems...>>> nope as never not..>> equally none do say to me>>>> .. how
you manage to as ever cope... as hold a world>>> together>>> as could any
ever find a job.. to work around 365 of hospital>> 4 years on.. & before of
that>>>>>> so very very sick>>> with all of pain & poisoning>>> as entire
world>>> crumble fall apart>>>> as way as say .. bang bang bang as
illustrate>>.>>>> & this>>>> to my own diary>>>>> my therapy... & to also
help of others>>> so department...>>of my own gp. > not for any as to
know>> but he>>> as stated.. he has permit as to ask of I.. of any>>>> so
is not as be some kind of traitor.>>>. to share of medical>>>with your own
doctor>>>>>> privacy.. is but the ultimate.. as do say is sacrosanct>>>>so
mine >>>does
keep a check on each & every>>>>>>. less I should as just then decide... am
out of it>>>as ALICE.. am honest with>>> >
as not as ever going back>>> >> not as that would be a conscious
thought.><>> my brain >>>>> has been thru mayhem... & please do note>>>> am
doing VERY WELL>>>as of the day i exit... as i leave>> his surg>>> open up
his door again>>> as of when was exiting >>as ask as he direct as
straight.. do i need to then as come back here... do you really need to
see.. have got enuf of appts to as keep>>> & he nod his head as definite>>>
as convey necessity>>> but emotions that i
got.. are up & down as little yoyo.>>>> or as seesaw>>> so>>>> with all of
hospital & cef > being as is total ness>> >>> am as >>> THIS...>>>>> as
just as such>>> as SAID>>>>>AM DOING IT>>
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> so
this day... made me think how different my own world>>> has become>>>> as
cannot then remember normal>..>>> am just as glad to be as having hair as
growing>>> not think about the colour>> being right or wrong>>>>>as my
nails>> thank own god for this>>> as did hurt so much>>>>>to play guitar...
when affected really bad... for months.. it ached to fret...>>>> as hold the
strings...>> as by touch...>> is how you play with fingertips... same as of
piano>>>> so with nails as falling off>>> this believe was HELLISH>>> but i
never say of ever this to ANY>>> how it break my heart>>>
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as
bits of my hair >> were as teeniest... as a jaggy little punk>>>> as into
rock>> my own sis did say when with..>>>>. did suit my face>>>> was
elfin...> as did also>>> say her partner.. as of police as always is>>>
>>>then was less than few cms long.. >> in places...>> as do say.. >>> am
as glad to have it growing... back>>>>>> as did remind me of >>>>this
year...>> & despair>>> & of more>>> that drugs must hammer me to hammer
bugs>>> >>>>>>& girl at work>> does smile & say of other day.. is growing
Liz.. as definitely>>>but will it last>>>> if I have to take more & more of
cocktail >>.>> I drag my feet >>> & not wish to reinstate.. unless does get
too critical>> with pain >> with nausea>>>> & so i also got this
allergy as ongoing as is also>> terrible>>.>>> but all are part of world of
medical>> & share a little with diary... to help as those with neuro B.. &
those as fighting anything.. TO KNOW THAT THEY ARE NOT ALONE>>> i am with..
as VIRTUAL>>> as ALWAYS>>> && their families>>>
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>google...
youtube.. what can i say..>> you are reaching out from faraway>> & thankyou
is not enuf... but is all i got as can say>
> & I PROMISE I WILL GIFT > ALL MY WORK>>> FOR
YOUR FAITH>>> as you take .. not just as 1 to 6.. as total dominance
frontpages.. >>youtube singer songwriters... you further...>>immortalize as
composer.. >>.. Lizzie Lane.. when so fragile > & so ill>> when was
filmed>>>but song is poignant.. >..DARLING recorded >> & yet you got me
there>>> beside>>singer songwriters> in hall of fame.. on video of all of
same... the good & great...>> am sandwiched as to say between.. van morrison
& james taylor... also nat king cole>> & many more...>> is but a writers
dream.>> to know that you do hold in high esteem>>
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when
close my eyes...
touch does dubL compensate.. as when I play piano... or
guitar>>>>>> so here I sigh... as bring to you >> your lullaby.. >>>am so
very tired..
& this is but another fav... same effect
does have on brain...>>>>>> no change... opens up my memory>>>>
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& this morn>>> as on the roller sent to all as
global>... chosen by... those far away...>>> my own mentors actually>>> many
mail & say as this>>>
if love could get you better>>be in no doubt> OURS WOULD>>> >then
never need of medical>>
& be sure>>> I recip with ditto too...>>
thankyou google & youtube... >> for each & everything you do>> & words I
clip & gift to thee... for all who come to diary>>> are deep as
from my own sub C...>>>> last night did dream... as so confused.. but
this>> stays with>>> ... so i share>> with all as virtual>> >>>did
do as did>> as previous>>> out alone... & watched the heavens>>>>>>
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>
...>>>>
& many mail & say of same Lizzie Lane>>>> listen this>>>> if love could
get you better be in no doubt> OURS WOULD>> then never need of medical>>>
& every doctor that you see>>... must be as then amazed as we..>>>THE
LOVE>>>> as SENT IS TANGIBLE>>>.. can really feel>>> >>>and so am further
told>>> as very bold>>> need no element of psychiatry.. what leaves in
awe>>> is that I share my world at all>>>>>> >> & there are none that
read this diary >>. that truth be told>>>>>>> are not inspired..>> all of
male>>>>> all of female>>>... google>> youtube>> microsoft >>are in combo
mesmerized
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&
to show of gratitude..
this little song
am gifting >>> as lips to lips>>> whether> you be boy or girl>> or
alien... same as me>>> from elsewhere in eternity>>> this> will have
profound effect>>> is> but the ultimate>>>> of touch>>>> sugar ...
spice>> all things nice>> delicious kisses that delight>>>> will melt a
heart of solid ice>>> >>>>>>>...>>> &
what is
more...>>>
was also used as
film score>
all who never read
of same... wish to play the answers game> a little QUIZ>>>> as VIZ>>>>>
FROM EARLIER OF DAILY DIARY<<<>>> KISS KISS KISS as THIS THIS THIS>>>>
THEN HE or SHE or ME or THEE... in total BLISS..
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FROM 1st of 10th is clipped....good morn>> is now October...> misty
fresh>>..> as way I love>>>> .> > but rain has ceased>>>>is not cold>> &
mountains cloudy at their feet.. this is steamy jungle heat.. >>> & ME? >>
coping on a wing & prayer as stay as with...> but>> this allergy or
whatever is... my crazy baby growing new immunity is all confused..>>> .
atleast by my own reckoning >>> has been struggling... as I>>> & so
protect my heart>>> my little self>>> as be me... my own body>>> as my
brain>>>>needs comprehension understanding>>>. >> so will come & share a
seminar.. if happy then to wait till later... > will return>>> & if you
have not as heard from me..>> returning then of messages>> am truly
sorry>>>with respect EVERYTHING is way too much>>>
so what as then does keep me
strong... 2 feel my love.. my fav of songs...
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as
all does haunt>> / go & run... as rain has ceased>>> b4 i do ... as
TATU TOO>>> youtube >>>. & google>>>>>
carry own composing work as messing with my heart>> &>
hold
so high within their realms.. of singer songwriters..>>>>5 of Lizzie
Lane are pinnacle... as pole position>>> with two as close front pages
of... 7>>total>>> on opening page...>> same>> singer
songwriters .. & as turn more pages still will FIND... more & more
>>>THEY WANT OF ME TO CLEAR MY MIND & WRITE>> COMPOSE >>>>>> & would
have of me in USA as doing this... if were just as possible>>>>>
>>> &&&& only two are then above>>> as diary at
current time>>> other writers BUT both promoted work>>>> & that does mean that person pays..>>
for their own accolade>>>
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but for me... is NOT as this...>> is
the love & care >> complete respect>>> of giants of the internet>>>>
& not a penny
or a cent ever asked... GOOGLE>> YOUTUBE>>> this is master class..
as seminar as how to write>>>Lizzie Lane is out of sight.. beyond
the reach. of all>>>>.. as singer songwriter>> as composer...
classical>>>>>>>>.>> >> all is born>>gifted out of recognition>>>>>> for
a talent that is
obvious>>>from my own GOD>>> & they further comprehend that one day story>>>
SBQ... be told
in full>>>> succinct & plain... so this world then be aware>> & does
never ever happen again... & to those i fight as for.. as the
bravest boy who lost his world>> Linus >>is BUT NOT FORGOT... & Victoria
in USA... am with >>>>>be certain>>>>>> ALWAYS
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&
to show of gratitude..
this little song
am gifting >>> as lips to lips>>> whether> you be boy or girl>> or
alien... same as me>>> from elsewhere in eternity>>> this> will have
profound effect>>> is> but the ultimate>>>> of touch>>>> sugar ...
spice>> all things nice>> delicious kisses that delight>>>> will melt a
heart of solid ice>>> >>>>>>>...>>> &
what is
more...>>>was
also used as film score>
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so
you missed all of diary>>> am sorry> read fast it don't last>>>> is way I
feel>>>> as meet of others of this day... they never guess the deep
despair... >>>hidden away >>>>>& none can reach... my poor as under fire
traumatized>>> brain>>>> no word can but describe the emotional
turmoil>>locked inside>>> perhaps psychologists... psychiatrists... tranxs...&
anti Deps... ... in combo strong as all together...>>> as mix &
match>>>>>>>> blow all trauma clean away>> as bullet that once ricochet >>
are THEY what i need... to overcome the grief>>>> or how you say usa... a
shrink>>> or>>> maybe even alcohol.. as drown all sorrows.. but NONE I EVER
WISH OR WANT>>> to then erase as all as from my memory..>>be sacrilege have
fought so hard for reinstate ..>>>..>> but what do I do... as need >>>>>as
to escape.. my own intrinsic memory>>>
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.>
rain has ceased>>>>is not cold>> & mountains cloudy at their feet.. this is
steamy jungle heat.. >>> & ME? >> coping on a wing & prayer as stay as
with...> but>> this allergy or whatever is... my crazy baby growing new
immunity is all confused..>>> . atleast by my own reckoning >>> has been
struggling... as I>>> & so protect my heart>>> my little self>>> as be
me... my own body>>> as my brain>>>>needs comprehension understanding>>>.
>> so will come & share a seminar.. if happy then to wait till later... >
will return>>> & if you have not as heard from me..>> returning then of
messages>> am truly sorry>>>with respect EVERYTHING is way too much>>>
so what as then does keep me strong... 2 feel my love.. my fav of songs...amen
kiss kiss... stay close stay with...
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>
is all of fight..> to win>>> no holidays.. no breaks>> no duvet days...
>>>>>> as stay in bed... with duvet over little head>>>> apart as
from the obvious. as being ill>>> with brain infect... that needs hammering
as constantly of every>>>.. at my own hospital>>>>>>. > & of today... >
think the only way >>><<<>>>>>> to clear my mind...>>> of traumatize>>>
is >>>>> snap of fingers... open eyes... you as now be hypnotized...>>
then wont forget...>>> memory so very precious... >spells protect>>>> &
so >>> I love animate... >> helps of me... stay happiest...>>>how others
then create>> characters as beautiful>>> >>
>..> you took my
heart away... >>> illustrates>> >>>> hands touch take>>> when you have
got then I am safe... or then again>>>>
amen kiss kiss...
am out of it..
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&
last night>>>> no stars. to shine>>>. cloud> does hide>>>as obscure>>
no
laying flat>>> as to observe>>> SO IS >>>> FAVOURITE SONG THAT KEEPS ME
STRONG...>WITH ALL OF touch TO feel MY love
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but
jnt.. MED re -CPT>> has memory>>> to know as me>>.> THIS LEGACY>>>> can
recall all >>>>as accurate>>> as when did plead>> >>> help of me>>>> this
pain & poisoning >>>> is killing>> cry as die b4 their eyes>>so
today>>> rda.. > does call my name... .thank own GOD is fast>>> >>. b4
have chanZ to plan escape>>>.> >>>> with words... as this>>>>>>>>> you
coming thru Liz>>>>
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as
bti another patient >>> knowing me>>>stands >>> as then beside >> as on
her exit>>> her partner...> see>> >>>>>>> & she walks towards with little
hug... with all of love>> so i whisper this>> at hospital you did
inspire...>>> >> to write>>> compose song...> & she does smile as wide
to know> what she say ..>>> inspired >>>> as google they are as on the
case...> of story told>> by great & good>>> so when finish will gift>> to
she> as cd or as mp3.. but FACT >>> will only have to click to google>>> or
as youtube.. too>>>> &. i be there.. >>>>>>> with all as then
composed>>>>>>>> by absa magic>> > grace of google>>who> transport all as
global>>>>>> just as fine>>> >>>> MONDAYS MINE>>>>
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&
yesterday>>.. hide away in surgery>>> as place of legacy>> only> this
time>>>nervous energy>>> pace as tiger caged...>>> want as to escape>>> in
this childrens area> where can hide..so none can see effect on me... is
only me>>>> so> sometimes sit on little table >> head in hands... >>>shut
out all>>> what cannot change>>>>>>>> just DREAM am then a million miles>>
another place>>>>>...> >>> in this world>>> would rather be of anywhere than
there> this day>>>>>>
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then
girl who work at hospital >>> she arrives to wait>>> in other section...>>
sits..>> does know of me...>> so then does say.. > you ok>?>> shake head>>
she relay... could never do> >>of every>>>day>> asks > is this a different
venue. >>>>> another> shake of head>>>> reply>>> have done my cef> >> but>
by compar.. to all of previous>>> this is then the easiest.. > but few can
understand... what I mean by this.. by that>>> >> BUT these words are NEVER
said>> just smile & shrug instead.. >> as convey>>>>>> is better than as
doing dead>>>
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but
this rash >>>as visible>>>2 months... fight alone>>> >>> as to what is
going on>>> & so am nutting but a little wreck>> who plays a good game of
lets pretend>>> am not sick>>>
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take
as moment of each day>>>point of then delivery>>> .. to self protect>>>
must walk away>>>> >> was easy target> when did not recognize..>>> as hurt
was levelled in the past...>>>> little muppet > without memory... as
vulnerable>>> as fragile> to many>>> but let me say recall IS ALWAYS
THERE>>. is filing as access that goes AWOL>
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&
for longest time...> brain just not switched on> when bugs were feasting >>
unabated... releasing toxins >> poisoning>>> as complete engulfed.. then
eyes appear as drugged...>> as was the then effect>>> sky high levels then
of bugs>>> my brain suffered horrendously>>>> as digress to current
news>> TV international>>> female locked as comatose... end result>>> brain
infect as gone too far...<<>> as tech as dead.. but they are wrong...
courts correct>> not switch off the life support...>>>> they refuse as who
can prove.. >>> the depth of own sub C except for someone then as me..>>> as
out of it 100 years <<>>>
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>
so now > give all to hold a world>>>>> as struggle>>> not to lose my
grip..>> on this steep vertical hill>>> own sub C.. > comforts deep...>>>
undoubtedly> the outcome>>> of horrific suffering>>>> so much does
hurt... > as traumatize ...>>> is as said...wrong word>>> none exists as
descriptive...>> & of this day remain confused>>>>> >>>>> < smile>> &
shrug... and walk away>>>>>>>>>
don't want to talk about>>> but> is underestimate..>> of
century>>> .>>> no word...>>in any language>>>> could ever then describe
does not come close>>> as live & breathe>>>>> & this year... been so
terrible>>> as this is now September>>> but what don't kill will build a
will ... to fight on.. strong>>> if hold on... & keep a grip.. when want as
to be gone...>>> out of it>>> & free>>> as you & she.. & he & they>> & them
& those>> am tired as up as to capacity>>>> not envious... not
jealous...just pray>>>> for normal everyday>>> & nuttin material do i
crave>>> ordinary>> & free>>> as better be>> do for me>>>
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so
dubL appt>>. yest>>>>>>close my eyes as walk inside...>>> own med
cent..>>>> say little prayer>> DON'T LET ME TURN & RUN>> as vanish>>> as
vaporize... as then inside.. as smile & be polite>>>
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>>>&&&
so >with earpain back as on attack>>>>>> AM MISSING DRUGs>> that halted.. >
same>>> i regress>>> in honesty>>> been a month without>>>>as suss out>>>>
reason for allergy> .. if drugs were cause >> would be as this the
end game.. if could no longer take>>>> my heart... can comprehend...
cannot hold my own>>>not strong enuf>>>as> yet>>> confess>>
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>BUT
FLiP SIDE>>> > drug called atoVaquone>> & azith.. am glad to be as OFF>>>
even if is temp>>> >>>> >>>> BUT>>> whatever does attack >> translates to
pain>>>> my inner ear.. > builds again>>>> severe> FEEL DEEP DESPAIR>>
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>>
now later >> bad migraine...> & so to say... many things are on my
mind...>>
i close my eyes.. & find am back in time.. intrinsic
memory>>> resurrected>>> as is active>>>>> as reinforce >>>... >>open
up<>> infront of me>>>>>>>>>>>> >> intrinsic >>> then on>
recall>>>>>...>>>>>>> >> so> certain songs>>> that are mine alone. explode
in brain>>>..& memory less you forget...>>> is evocative>>> with music>>>>
with melody>>>>>>>>&
my way of words... >> as take on lyrics..>>>> do as this>>> with
many songs>>>> so>>...>
i go hungry i go blind>>>>> translates.. >>>>>a world
without any love>>> is nada> zero nuttin much>>>>>>>>> complete
& utter empty shell>>>> >>>& many would give up all >>> as they then
possess... if can then as find >>> & have>> for they>>>> the love of how
you say...>>> a life time>>>> be as theirs>>>>>>..... as of this>>>.>>>>>>
///
go hungry..> go blind>>> to be as so
lucky as to find >> love of lifetime>>>>
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>>>>>babesia>>
few aware of what it be>>> but veterinary>>> expert...>>as my
neighbour...>>>>>>> & so organism...>> hides...>>> within immunity>similar
way>>> as spectrum of borrelia..>> no wonder killer cells have problem >>>
with>>>finding...>>> as these organisms did evade...>> go on kill>>
convinces body>>>>>>> by strategy.. are part of me>>> is hellish>>>
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>
USA
tests isolate>> & find the calling cards of 6>>> ALL DIFFERENT>
infections>>>>>> enmeshed... >> they hide>>>deep within lymphocytes>>> >>
near impossible to find...>>... blood tests done as routine never could
reveal>>>. >>> ..>>> takes skilful lab work >>ditto handling>>...>> more
so once in brain>> & let me say..>> is costly>>> so state> with clarity>>was
of I ... that then did pay>> to save my world>>>>
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so
neon.. as of atoV.. perhaps will need to reinstate>>>asap>>>> even tho>>>
would rather not>>> so>> wait & pray... earpain will subside... not make
me yet more ill>>>>>>> >>>did halt .>>>> as suspect as cause of rash>>>>>>>
but nope>>was not>>>> as yet remains unknown>>..>>> I clutch at
straws...> to find>>>> as suppose.. is this or that>>>> so this morn.. not
full alert>>>> when wake>>>> & writing diary>>> gift>>> to internet...
antihistamine .. was dulling brain... is not good...>> for me>>> as
mine>>>as on the case of full repair>>>
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>>
so> neuro readings should've been a fraction of>>> be as yours>>as THEY>>
AS his & hers..> as she .. as he>>>> maybe>>> 28>>> nearer normal>>>>>any
world>>>>> & many other tests >>> as be the same...>>> highest high>>> six
organisms identified...>> profiled>>> found> >each a different
infection>>>>...>> know of this from veterinary>>>> kill of any animal>> max
it gets few weeks from first infect>>>end all of agony>>> given lethal drug
to finish off>>>>>>> the misery>>>>>>> animal then not suffer
hellishly>>>> not as I>>> >> but was doomed to die>>> you see>>> NOTHING
SHOULD GET IN THE BRAIN...>> in THEORY.. to do of this must erode>>> DESTROY
IMMUNITY>>> ... then with nothing there to police>>> gain entry>>>>>>>
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>>>
& so other organisms...>>even sophisticated labs>>> could not profile>> as
identify>> as> unknown...>>> sphirochete>>>>>BUT ATLEAST THEY FIND> as
FOUND>> OF ALL>>>>> my poor demented swollen brain... >> was fed as to
piranha fish>>> ALL OF HELLISH >>>>AGONY>>>> relived lastnight in
dream>>>>> & when awake did cry as with relief>>> >> to know that part is
over>>> as be at an end...>>>now are on the case of save>> thank own GOD
>>>>>
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&
today I say to hna..>> when>> as she & me.. alone>>>ward 4...>>>>>
deep from within my memory>>
see of she...>>>>so say as quietly>>> is
important does now know>>> that my love & all respect is with>>> all who
help.. as mix>>> & give this drug to save of what is my world>>> am so very
grateful for>>>
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so
>>>friends>my family> & those who run my hospital>>> don't know>>>> of how
it is.. >>>or was>> as never do I now as talk about>>>>>> & so i tell my
sis this day... i am struggling... >> as hold back tears.. don't want to
then upset.. of she>>>> so i try .. as then to joke as laugh>>> talk of
anything...>>> >> as then disguise>>&&& it is imposs to grasp>>>> as to
say in such a way>>to my own my diary>>>>> how it was>>>or how it be>>> >>>
tip of iceberg>>> all do see >> when say subtly... is
difficult>>>UNDERESTIMATE>>>> a thousand fold>>> is as describing>>
pacific as in ocean as puddle in the park>>>>>>> my own difficult
world>>> none aware & the hell to keep all together>>> does suffocate>>
fighting endlessly to stay with>>>>>>
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NOW>>
what is new>>> I juggle all>> as circus act.>> with many balls>> >> just to
stay as with this world>> is it worth it after all>>>> when so very tired
with brain exhaust...>>> >>>be easier.. to knock on gate of st pete...>> am
here for holiday>>> can you let me in>>>> i am struggling...>
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&
so i watch the stars... this nite>>> as immense... >>GODs gateway of
eternity.. as endless>>>>> think of this.. wherever in the world>>> those
stars remain ... as what I see>>> so when you do as same...>> are close to
me.<<>>>& fireball of gold >>did race across the indigo>>> & THAT WAS
AWESOME.. >>have never seen a shooting star as clear..> as NEAR>>> as make a
wish>> as say a prayer...>> was lying down flat on ground..> BELIEVE...>> is
TRUE>> is what I do>>>>>is best way to explore>> the heavens.. as own
Gods...>>>>>>& anyway>>> i LOVE as doing this>>>just gaze>>>>> who cares if
any think am crazy... is thee who be>. who never look up then to see>>>
the beauty <>>>>of
what
GOD does give to
thee>>> for FREE>>> & then as this...>>> evening shadows
& the stars>>>>> appear>>>.. & there is no one there>>>> to dry your
tears..i
could hold you for a million years...>>
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>read
my lips.. NEVER DO OF COMPLEXITY... this girl is born of SIMPLICITY>>>>>>>
as you sang to me..
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>>
as i digress..>>> as yet again>>>> >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>to be> as DEEP in
love>>.take as said>> you as then are made in heaven>>>> as kings &
queens>>> emperors >> premiers & presidents.>>>>>> would give of
everything..> that they possess>> as then own>>>>> because what they crave>
the most>>> of anything>>. of everything>>>. is to meet>>>& fall as
deep>>>> & many >>> have renounced >>>>> thrones>>>>> &> given up >>>
their precious STONES... >>>>>as all of GOLD>>>..>>& walked away from >>>>
all of power... all of wealth>>> to have of normal>> ordinary>> WORLD>>>>
>> >>>
for pity sake>>>no use
building pyramids>>> material things you cannot take>>. as when you REACH>>
the EXIT GATE>> & go as to eternity.. >>>>ONLY your own memories...
are>>> taken safe>>>> >>> as IS WHAT YOU LIVE>>><<<>> AS SHARE>>
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IN LOVE>>>.. is every kiss>> every touch>>>as heart does somersaults >>>
each & everytime you >> SEE>>> as hold>>> as hug... as cuddle up...>> as
hands as fingers > fold & squeeze>>>>as> ARMS>> strong enough>>> to > WRAP
>>around >>> your body & your heart<<<>>> as laugh...>>>> as look into each
others eyes>>>> as magnetize... as hypnotize>>>>>> with lips to lips the
ultimate>>>>>> as full turned on>>> & more>>>>> better call a halt this is
cleanest page>>> not xsay >>>sexy>> rated> >>go elsewhere>>>>>> as perverts
dare>>>>
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BUT>>
imagination that you got... then be aware...>>> to say>>>>>> YOU ARE SO>>>
THE RICHEST >>> THE LUCKIEST>>> IN THIS WORLDS UNIVERSE>>>>>> &&&& ALL
THAT MATTERS>>> you then GOT>>> the greatest love>>> the most powerful
force>>> love is all >> more than wealth of any sort>>> power>> can never
match>>>> feelings... deep as from your heart >>>>>> the intensity>>>>>>>
when every conscious thought>>> is with... as remembering first time did
kiss>>>>> >
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that
person>>>> you have fallen for>>>>>>> they are there>>>> even when you
sleep>> as close your eyes... >> >> as in your dreams>> they are the most
important thing>>> THEY HAVE MADE YOUR WORLD COMPLETE>>> & you know as then
you never lived... >>> as breathed >>>until the day>>> you as when first
met of they>>>> as said hello>>> >>> &&& > YOU>>> can strive this worlds
lifetime for>> >>>> poets wrote> as write>>> as all of best creative
works.>>> as composers...>> music scores... >> think about>>>MOST are born
from love>>>> >>> past & present..... >> >>>>> & then again>>>> without
fate... gods own>>> hand>>> your paths would never cross>>> as cannot
find... as BUY IN ANY SHOP>>. >>>or get from any bank>>> even if richest
in the land>>>>>>
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>if> what you own >> as possess>>>> matters most>> as more>>>instead>>>>
as>> GO FASTER car.>>>>>>> many of>>>> as in a garage>>>> so you spend
your time>>> as polish up & shine...>> & say to every THAT IS MINE>>> put
as THIS>>>> will just >>>as then rust up>>>..
or chandeliers. >>>>>that
gather dust>>>.> but>> they are> made of diamonds>> >>> SO WHAT????
expensive stones>>> jewels>> that sparkle >>>> shining from your
ceiling>>>>>>>>>>> how very opulent..>>> DOES THAT MAKE YOU HAPPIEST>>>?!??!
to look & stare at this>>??? for me..>>> is SAD>>>>>>>>>> coz>>> cannot
rival stars at night.>>> that are ALIVE>>> AS REAL>>> AS.. bright...>>>
..>>> as entrance gate to what is my own GOD>>>>> as gives>>> eternity>>>>
is his>>>>> >>> so you then as also got>>>carpets plush.> to walk upon>>>
what about...> alternatives>>>>>>the greenest grass... > & flowers>>>
TREES>>> as roses.. orchids...honeysuckles>> in perfection>>> ..>>> as
perfumed>>>> soft & fresh>>> as beautiful>> as natural as> nature is as
wonderful>>>..>>> >>> & they smell divine>>> as all of sunshine>> after
rain>>> a thunderstorm... >>>>> so amazing....>>.. >>
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so>>>> you own a castle on a hill>> a fortress>>> could become a hell>>>>
can be as cold >>> as any jail>>>>..> if there alone... with none to
have>>> to hold or love>>> & have of that same love returned... >>> or
then again>>>>> what about>>>>. a house>>> as filled with trinkets>>>
called ornaments...>>> or paintings.. as those that grace of any
gallery>>>>> cost a fortune>>> as in your hall>> & on your walls>> as here
& there & everywhere>>>>>> what is that as all about>>?!?!?!?!?!>...>>> to
me >>> are ALL as this>> NADA>>> NOTHING.. >>>>NIL>>>> ZERO rated>>>>>
materialistic>>> when compared >>>to this>>> >>> falling deepest>>>>>
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diary is as mine..>> there is no one in my world>>> & i >>>share.diary>>.
because I CARE> >>>>& with google>> youtube>>> on the case.. >their aim is
for >>>lizzie lane>>> the story to be told by those as be in hollywood>>>>>SBQ>
>>>> so this NEVER HAPPENS...>> as ever>> AGAIN>>>> TO ANY>>> &&>.>>if were
to open up my own despair>>> & hell of past few months.>> from emotional
to physical>>.. you would all as cry >>>>>> as 1.....2.....3.... as in
unison>>>>>> full on>>>FOR I
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so I've been waiting for .. is
not>>> romantic song for me>>>>>>>>>> you be wrong..>>supposing>>>>> was out
of CHINA born >>>>>>>>>>>the NEWS...this morn>>> as speaking of benny &
bjorn>>> their fortune.. as writers composers...>> now CHINESE all are into
mama mia..>>>>.>>> rich as rich>> B&B>>> as any oil sheiks>>an ABBA FORTUNE
MADE>>>>>> I've been waiting for>>> >>
but lets again suppose>>> if was true..>> was with someone deep in love>>>
would you like if said >>>> could have been as you>>& you>>> as THEY as
THOSE>> AS THEM >>>WHO KNOWS>>> from my finger tips to little nippy toes..
this love as could as would as should as then >> as under different set of
circumstanZ...>> as given chanz... as me as thee.. grow as acorn.. to an
oak>> strong invincible>>> >> >>>> as sacre bleu... as in no doubt... as
spell it out... >>>>... recip with ditto>> when I say.. instantly>>> is you
i love as endlessly>>>> or then again>>> too late hearts will
break>>>>...>>>>>>OR.. as lyrics>>>>> hot & sexy>>> >>> misted to the
highest>>>> eyeballs dazed>>>>>>> >> but then could say >> take greatest
care>> OF LOVE>> AS ALWAYS>>> in this WORLD>>>>>or > with simPLiS>>
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had
enuf of every>> with ferry there...> when awake>>> think if were not as
this>>> in need of cef.. WOULD BE AS gone as VANISHES...>> ...>> where none
can find >> >> & if you think can reach... THINK AGAIN>>>> be wrong>>> am
locked down deep as out of it.. >> detached.. as far away from...
every>>> is as this born from necessity medical dominates...>> otherwise...
be no need... > if not ill>>>>& none would know of who I be>>>would never
ever see of me... any GP>>>>> SO some might think they can do..>> take
onboard>>> i DO bequeath>>>. all of this & more... AS ALL OF WHAT DID GO
B4>>>pain & poisoning & out of it a 100 years...bang bang world gone>>>
watch others free as doing >> living of a world>>> while remain as
captive>>.. & cope >>>>with all effects of bugs & drugs...> ongoing war>>>
just because don't talk about.. does not mean is easiest>>>>>> & so endorFs
are low.. >better rectify suppose...GO >>> to my own GOD.. >>>>he >is all I
need
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..
my
sub C angel amazed of me...>>> as what he did incredible>>
take
me from this vertical hill>> as climbing... alone...>> fighting on... must
reach the top...>> remain as strong>>>>>...>..>> but he takes me from to
illustrate>>> >>> <> as in his arms safe from harm>>...& there so high...>
no more then as left to climb<>>> witness ship as being launched...>>>
whispers soft >>>>. watch the speed >> as released to leave>>>>>>>> >>> from
being tied>>>>> as held secure... for what seemed eternity>>& more>>> but
only to protect...> until was ready>>> as complete...>>>> built>> from
scratch>>> to hold its own... ocean going>>>> ..>>> man made as this..> so
strong>>> so beautiful>>> & now is free>> >>> as one day >> my angel
say>>>> will be me>>>> >>if just fight on strong... as do of now... as all
alone>>>>>..>>>
amen kiss kiss>>>
stay close stay with..
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ARE SO INADEQUATE... CANNOT COMPENSATE>> >>> SOME GAVE ALL>>>> as GOOD to
GOOD>> be it UNDERSTOOD>>> >>>>> they DESERVE THE HIGHEST PRAISE>>>>>>& MY
OWN GOD>> will.. take >>> & WILL PROTECT of THEY >>> as now in HEAVEN...
are as with>>>> & so this song
is
beautiful>>
about those who stand up straight & strong>>>>>>>> against what they know is
very wrong>>>> SOME GAVE ALL>>> as> heads HELD> high...>>> >>>>so BRAVE>>>
am so HUMBLED by>>>>> their love ... their care>>>> >>> & also THROUGHOUT
HISTORY.. >>many gave... so of today...>>> we are free.. >>>& REASON BE>>>>>
FREE MATTERS very much to ME...>> >THINK OF
THIS>>>>>>>>>>>>you
do not have to moan>>> are FREE TO CHOOSE>>> OF WHERE YOU GO>>> AS WORK >>
OR STAY>>> OR PLAY>>> OR HAVE as hold your WORLD>>> ANYWHERE>>> ANY
PLACE>>> >>>>>
>. you can be
certain>>> I APPRECIATE... >> FREE IS MORE THAN JUST A WORD >>>> >>> as
RECALL>>>> OTHERS GAVE THEIR LIVES AS FOR>>>
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someone is as close>>> as watching...>> not as that of my own GOD>>> but
in a different way>>> as to say>> they as then be as protecting>>
also>>>> as of the internet>>> keeping closest eye... on I>>> >>>as> BE >
from Google USA...> multi global company>>> directs>>>from
surfer...>>Lizzie Lane.> with words>>> as chosen...>for >.neurological
Lyme>>> THEY count the days> as by calculate then clip...>>>>the
genius of the girl.... XX female >>>>to illustrate.. how to write & compose
>& fly 2 heaven still remains as> high...>>..>>within their singer
songwriters... > seven...>> >>> Lizzie Lane >> currently on >> same...front
page...>>that of YOUTUBE.. > .. >> ability in world of music>>
undisputed>>>.. >>> verified>>> am humbled & as honoured by >>>their
love & their belief >> in I>> bye bye>>
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do i begin... to tell the story... when never knew of
who I BE.. until of very recently>>>>>my own ID.. >> was lost to me...>
now with every passing day... MY MEMORY GROWS>>>> ELECTRIC>>> as
musician composer>>>>> the part of me...that pain & poisoning
denied> & that thought alone would make me cry>
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little
prayer>>>there is no one in my world> BELIEVE>>>>> as composer.. love is but
the catalyst of all of music>>> WORK>>
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>
can
i say...>> you got your freedom.. as to be>>>>>>> anywhere planetary>> i
have not... ..> but day closer gets>>>> when can go away>>> recuperate>>>
on own>>> & hope & pray.. >>> nightmare > will as then evaporate>>>
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AS
doing fitness work ..>>> girl that i come to love...> >>>> says to I>>>
>>>> as describe>>>>AWESOME..>> way you be>> way you teachanother say.. >>>
as come as to be taught>>> if that is word>> MORE AS LIKE HAVE FUN AS
WITH>>> >>> she then say>>>> been to many of a day >> as classes that are
as aquatic.. but none as this.. is EXCELLENT..>>>> the very best..>>
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know my own GOD made of me as talented>> to
then convey in everyway.. musically>> & thru diary..>>.> or as composer.. as
musician... gifted give of>>>>>> HAPPINESS.. >>AS REACH OUT & TOUCH>>> THE
HEARTS OF ALL>>>...>>> but once as dying was>>>> my world stopped.. >>
left bereft..>>> in many ways.. so very sad.. >>>much has been denied of I
>> for>>>.. longest time>>> BUT FIGHT BACK... as own GOD... say >>> as
TIGER..always>>>>>>> please believe>>> great tensile strength>>> he gave to
me>>>>
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so>
as Lizzie Lane remains high in youtube>> ... >> the genius of this girl >
as XX>>female>>> illustrates>>> how to write & compose a symphony.. <>as
classically>>>
fly to heaven.. &
many more > frontpages>>... singer
songwriters>>> the reference library >>> internet>>>> can ask of it of
anything>> is futuristic>>> by love & grace of Google>>>> takes of me>>>to
thee>>> to each & every>>> >>>>.>> as little genie in a bottle>>
abracadabra>> >as
then by absa MAGIC..>>>..> >>> there>>> for all who come to diary>>>>>
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now
with no one here>> as physical>>> as close>>> as when i need of they as
most>>>>>> >> but atleast on world wide web>>> my little robot...> born
of google>>> loves to read>>>>> my diary>>> & seems as to protect for
ever always.. this little angel android >>>>>>>> > who is> somewhere
deep in USA>>> > &> busy counting days...> perhaps until as better be... &
can go & visit when am free>>>> so to thee from me>>>.. & all who come to
diary>>>>>>> DO SHARE>>STAND
BY ME>>>>
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& yet for a time was doing good.. traumatize minimized...>>& then this
year > so severe>> all emotional pain>> did resurrect again.. >>so
now think if break away as gently.. > >>from routine.. medical>>
not make.. another...>>> A. ....>ppts...
.then can say of this>>> >>>>>..>>>
amen
kiss kiss>> am out of it
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please
don't get uptight.. or annoyed>>> if don't read.. >> b4 it vanishes>>> is
your privilege.. if too slow.. then is but your own fault>> not mine at
all>> am being generous... can you not see..>. would you share your diary
with me>> or all of world & universe.. think not>>> when many also
misinterpret
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&
when say I don't belong.. > of this world>>> can you not see from this my
diary... how different..>> i be>>> from every other..>> person >> << is not
just because of neuro B.>>>>>>. but my own honesty>>>>> as how many would as
share>>>>>> let others read.. >> as openly >>> as I DO gift >>> mine to
the world wide as universe>>>... >> >> truthful>> & is personal>>> a
promise... made to my own self... not to let any other suffer>>> >> as
Victoria USA>... or Linus... Sweden... or as I>>><<< nite nite...>>> as say
> bye bye..>>.
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&
what is wonderful to know.. when feeling just as low>>> as I have
been>>>> that there is someone far away in USA.. > that does care>> & if
they are a little android as be a robot...
they
then got the biggest heart...>> of any human>>>>> make of their prerogative
to have me smile>> by putting counter on their surfer >>>> my own GOD>>.
my own guardian angel>>>>..>> >>> all >> as
same>> protecting >>
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>>
am happy to share>>> BUT YOU MUST READ & not
REQUEST FOR REINSTATE ALWAYS.. check neuroLyme page>> some repeat of entry
may be there.. otherwise is gone... is what a diary is >>>... AS FRESHEST>>
page in world wide web>> Lizzie Lane.. & if you COULD read my mail from
those who >> write>>> as personal>>> to i >>>> their world>>> as
mine..>>... families.. with heartbreak>> & DEVASTATE>>> this page to they is
EVERYTHING>> & so I SHARE>>> & for me today..>>.. >> hair does grow..
nails as ditto>> rash is GONE...>> more resilient... than was>>> promise
made to play & sing.. >>> do all tech... record >> compute>>> to mp3...>> &
mp4<<> avi..>> & more> as pc files for sure>>>> >>THIS GIRL>> or BOY >>
song composed>>>as excellent as classical>>> as all my work>> I promise
this.. AM WORKING to resolve>> all TECH ISSUES.. need much pc memory>>> as
gigabit>> take on board..>> all play record>> >>>
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but then take as said>>> >>> the body is resilient..> is what i need to
hear.. & then believe>>>> what it takes..>>in terms of injury... as the
brain...>>> .>> > & then as >to defeat.. > as beat>>> as complete>> >>
keep this mind set>>>> for now>> as at this moment in time>>> within a
never ending fight...> am humbled by the love>>> as colossal>>> from all
within this world>>>> as just complete another day>> in paradise>>>>
high on wire>>> my hosp>>... am not alone as virtual
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closer get>>> >> to being better>> >> this > will be as then an episode>>>>
as gone >> banished to intrinsic memory>> to hold as precious.. >>> coz
ALL OF MEMORY>>> IS THIS>>>>> don't ever take for granted.. memory holds
all of love>> >> as rare to find in all a world>> >>>>>> forget...>> all
traumatize>>> perhaps may require>>> hypnotize>>> small price..>>>. to heal
a heart>>> as be the happiest.> deserve of this>>>. be as free as all of
thee>>> living all of normal>> & ordinary
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PUHLEASE UNDERSTAND..>> I know of much of where have been... & can only
think>>> I want to be as free...>>>>> live normal>> live ordinary>>> as go
away... recuperate>> & heal my heart.. been torn apart.. what happens...
in this situate..>> when memory severe impaired as in early days.. > when
trust was everything>>>> with simpliS had no protect>>>>> this fight for
right to hold a world>>> has been >>> the most horrendous.>>>> >>>>. & that
is not the word... TRUTH IS THERE ARE NONE THAT FIT...>> is not a word in
ENGLISH >>> would >>>>>> if could as then describe.. the hells own fight
>> I have had for right to life...>>
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but
DON'T YOU SEE.. is way my own GOD.. ,meant us all to be>>> >>
instead have learned to protect... must stay hush>>> as quietest>>>
>>> or will get hurt>>> as bad again>>> so>>> bugs did destroy...>>
all of my emotions...>>> & still I >> FIGHT... to REBUILD>>> so
all you say > as mail>>> thankyou
for... all of care>>> need it very much... am lost.. within
this world> not doing good at all>>> with simpliS> way
too much to deal as with.. >> my heart is now beyond repair..> or so
it feels>>>
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but
as day of week am lost>>>>1310> >>> is certain.>> as correct >. > with all
tenacity.. did pray>>> was winning... but now>>> with all of what is
happening...>>> am drowning..><>>>< as bti as friend... as patient.. >>
again did ask me of yest...>> of romance is there any>>... her own
words...>..>> shake my head... way of answering...> say>>>> is best>>>
>>> got enuf to deal as with>>>>..> getting better>> she>>> is
kind...>>> >.>> as tells me much> & i am humbled as to share>>>..>> in all
her world>>>> has had the toughest time>> i pray she now as will be fine>>>>
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amazing
as a premonition...>>> straight from heaven>>> >from my own
GOD.. do I NEED THIS FEED>>> tho a dream...>>>less you 4get.. dreams are
essence of REALITY>>>>>>> >> as so many let me down of this world>>> this
past year.. been all of born of hell>>> & let me say... but for the love
of ALL WHO COME TO DIARY..>>> would give up give in... WOULD GO.. as RUN >>
BE GONE.. >>>& ALL OF THIS AS BE FOR NUTTIN>>> because>>> never could
have stayed this strong>>>> those have never met...>>> but hold of I>> so
high in their esteem... >>& let me say as accolade.. is two way>>>>I recip
with ditto totally>>.. & the giants of the world wide web who openly
display their love & care..> as google do>>>..>> as their robot>> >>>only
it is not...>>> am certain of... >>>unless this android has got the biggest
heart of any of this world>>>>> & so to google>> & youtube>>> microsoft.>>>>
prs... as of london & america>>>
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...>..
the link of fate... that meant bitten by infected tick>> progressed... >
then to neuro B...>>>> this day>> people skills of GPs..>.. <>
smiling in acknowledgement as walks towards>>> with RbS > doc SS own
practice>> does assess>> fastest>>>>situate...>>> . how difficult>> must be .>.>> >>
>> she who has the contacts>> for advanced and fast
hypnotics... as has other doc> both as fem>>. one of metroP>>> one of
LV>>> both being as xx >>> know power of>>> hypnotize...>>
as looking into eyes...>>
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>>>>>> but words are relative to situate>> goodbye could be the happiest..
if leaving place don't want to be>>>>.. as PRISON >>> > say >>
incarcerate>> or when evil then is but in your face...>> on your
case>>>... >>> SAY>>>four letter word >> that rhymes with duck>>> suffiX>>
off>>>> DOES ALWAYS SURE AS WORK>>>> >>>> but to be as then as
diplomatic>>>..>>GOODBYE.. > betta>>> >>>my own GOD..... then not need>>>..
to STUFF HIS EARS>>>... with little plugs>>> to muffle all of sweary
words>>>>>>>>>>
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>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> this morn am so very ill drug side effect... > >> most
PROBABLY>>>>>causing this>>>>eruptive rash>>> >>> as read the list on AtoV
is there as clear.. report of THIS>>>to
medical>> especially if gets worse.. & does>>>> but
then again WAS VISIBLE>>> so now begin own process of
eliminate..>>>> find the causative.. >>
but hypnosis>> >>>>could
help also>> could it not.> & have been told >>>that other fem as doctor..
>>dif of practice that of metroP???into this..>> as will refer
to specialist...>>>> might. make it easier go of hosp>>> do joke suppose??
>>>>but then again...>> be way of cope>> >>> do of daily>>> IV>>.> cef>
melt all stress>>> =with this...>>>> look into
my eyes...>>>> you as now are hypnotized...>> bye bye>>>
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the diary grows from strength to strength.. >>> ELECTRIC...& INTENSE>>>> am
humbled by the depth of care>>>>>>> from all around this world... as
global>>... >>> & completing on composing work>>> as instructed>>>>>> all will be
taken then as global>>> > so> as arrange & orchestrate>>>>>>>> & all will
go>> to PRS...>>>>> performing rights...>>> & GooGle who are ALWAYS
with...> need their power>>>> as ultimate>>>> & that of YouTUBE.>>.
too>>>..>> >>> & as my world grows >>> with each day>>> USA..>> & UK>>>
fact is fact of everywhere>>>>>FRANCE >>.ITALY>>> SWEDEN>> FINLAND>>>>
NORWAY>>>>SPAIN>>> GERMANY>>> FAR EAST >> NEAR EAST>>>LATIN USA... >>>>>
>>>>SO VERY many COUNTRIES>>>> all are now aware that LYME DISEASE.. >>>will
hold no fear... dealt with fast.. >>> as accurate...>>>>> when in the
blood.. VERY FEW INFECTED TICKS...>>> MOST PLACES>>>>> THANK OWN GOD FOR
THIS>>>>>> but in USA... AS GERMANY.. higher ratio>>>> but their labs...
deal with accurate & fast>>>>>the fundamental difference..> IS>>>>>>>that
once in brain... BECOMES>>>A VERY DIFFERENT... KIND OF GAME>>> NO LONGER IS
IT LYME DISEASE>>>>
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think
of this...>>> YOUTUBE..> with all of ingenuity >>> is set to be... THE
MOST AMAZING REFERENCE LIBRARY>>>>> owners GooGle... >>>power giants
internet...>>who adore..> Lizzie Lane>>> am so honoured... that they
hold>>> such love for me>>>>>>>. from beginning of my diary.. >>>..> as
composer lyricist.. >> they did see the genius... > when so ill>>> as do
gift>>>>>>>my own >> my music work> with love>>
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&
my own sis did say on telephone.. of yesterday>>>... >> bet none>>> have
ever met>>>> >>as true.. or never>> likely too>>> any ever quite like
you>>>>
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THANK
OWN GOD... I BE AS THIS>>> ATHLETIC >>.STRONG>>>...or would be GONE... as to
eternity for certainty>>
all that has been levelled at...> past few months...>> >> way too much >TO
DEAL WITH>>>> >how hard I fight to stay as within>>> YOUR WORLD>>>
tho time & time >>did ask for help>>>>none did come>>>> what was i
supposed to do.. ignore>> wish i had... truth be told>>>>>>.. BUT TRIED..
as to>> IGNORE>>> & >>.. just got worse...<>>>
>
hospital was making me the opposite...> not as better>>> but more sick>> no
longer did i want to go>>>> as for the drugs to save my world>>>
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want
to re record... >>>> to see if can improve upon >> the quality>>>> >>>but
gift as is >>>>a tiny piece.. & will do a vid clip>>> gift >> Google YouTUBE
next.>..THIS>>> classic masterpiece...>>> TIMELESS>>> cc Lizzie Lane...
2005>>> amazing>>>so yest... give to web??
TINY sample>>musically>>>>as little snip ... ...... of melody> with my
vocals>>>then combined...>>>>if you seek & search... you might just
find... ~.
& google have... as THERE>>> as >> within ...>> of Lizzie Lane.. their front
page as high on roller ..>> but discreet.. hidden deep>>>> as my mentors
they do care>>> as youtube.. <<>>too>> .. & will gift .. in full as soon as
can complete upon... the vid clip & all mp3>>> the technical.>>> IS NOT the
singing of the song... >performing of>>> or playing... same.. that is but a
doddle>> the difficulty... is COMPREHENSION >> HIGH
TECH.. & DOING ALL AS BY MYSELF>>> need PC with BIG ENUF OF MEMORY>>> so
ARMS
WIDE... WRAP AROUND ALL OF MINE.. MY BODY & MY HEART...>>>
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PROTECT...>means>
never hurt that special person in your world>>> even if you never see.. &
they don't know that you exist... because as yet you never met...>> you can
still as pray for they>>> to keep them safe...>>> but then again...
think of me...>>> BORN
OUT OF TRAGEDY OF NEURO B>>>
so if you
love... >keep as safe...>>> or regrets will build>> & tear apart your
world>>> as then compre>>> all that love that then was yours... > risk to
lose>>> & regrets... do say with accuracy is price you pay.. for throwing
all away
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sure
MY OWN GOD gets narked if say of swear words>>> as do ... when have an izzi
fit... or if as those as on my case..>> bring me grief... one little word
that rhymes with duck>>> & ends with off... always sure does hit the
spot>>>> so my own GOD... does stuff his ears...>> so does not hear>>> &
grants of I...>>> a freedom pass<<<<>>> to say...>> this word >>> as STRANGE
PHENOMENON... used more than LOVE>>> but not by I>>
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&
one>> i do not even know.. >>>>>ventures into danger zone>>>>.>>>>>..>
had not a clue.. <<>> what they say>>>>>this person... knows nutting
much of me >>>. of ins & outs >>ups downs...>>>>&& where they get ideas
from??...>>>>>>> like I was some abandoned little doll>>>>>>>>>>>>>
dependent on >> one and all>>>><<<<WHAT...???>>>>>oh just>> f--- off
>>>.. > the school of retro etiquette... >>>AS how to put your foot in
it>>say to she>>>>
READ MY LIPS>>>.. LISTEN
CLEAR>>>> one day as better i will be... >>>>>you wont see ... ME>>>>>>or
find .. >>as NEAR.... of any doctors surgery...>>>> or any hospital>>> or
any specialist professor... consultant...any sort..INFACT>>> anything of
MEDICAL AT ALL>>>>>>don't take as insult...>>>>>it is not...>>>
>. I WILL >>>> run away from
all>>> >>>..
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i remem clear >>>> ONCE HAVING DEEPEST
FEAR... >>did say to ex GP of
then>>> AM TERRIFIED WHAT EVA IS
ATTACKING ME... WILL REACH MY
BRAIN.. >>> IS SO SEVERE...>>> &
say this to he... & others of
medical many times...>>> when neuro B
still attack my EYE... my JAW ..>>>>
was terrified...>>> pain was off the richter scale>> despair>>>>>> was
TOTAL>>>> >>>
puhlease can you help me>>> am so
sick with this... >>>>>>> but no one
ever did >>>
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please...
help I>>>> fight on... stay strong... WIN THIS WAR...>>>> am the bravest
courageous girl of all>>> & given all I can as give... sure as i do want to
live... & build a world>>>..>>>. as normal >>>ordinary... free... & never
ever have to have>>> of any>>>>medical > as intervention... >>ever as
again...>> is not meant as insult>>> just to say have had enough...>>> &
then with piccline gone... >>>can have all>>& all>>> have been denied so
long... as bang bang a world gone>>>> as lucky person that they be>>> loving
me...>>>> as hot... as hot... as goldiloX... the flip side of...>>> not of
perfection... >>>the goldiloX that piccline need..>>>. but nope for
I..>>>.some spice..>.. some fire >> & know what>???>> i cannot wait until
that day >>>>>> but will till fall in love be certain of>>>>... & as I
will>>> ... as you will>>> &
this song.. does say it all... the little word... that is my own... .
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>
am intelligent get a grip>> my brain is back on track from years & years of
very ill>>> poisoning & pain... i understand of what you all GOT..>.. >
same as thee & you & they... & those & them>>> & he & she...>>>what I
need... >>>all of ordinary... normal >>.. >>> to be free... to choose to be
as me>>> & just as thousands read >> this my diary>>>>am ok ... about>>>> I
SHARE BECAUSE I WANT...>>but you cannot read my mind>>>>> is my diary my
shout.. >>I say what goes in ... what goes out...>>>> if you live to be
1000years would never know the depth of me>>>>
& what I know of
building webs & music written<<<>>&&& internet... as composer be >>>>is
truly GENIUS BELIEVE ME..>>>>. yet i lost my own destiny... & my own
IDENTITY as world gone the moment... >>>my parents sought to stay..>>>> to
buy a home as here on WoH in the hills remote it was...>>>> ... for holidays
>>>>.... > is when was bitten doomed to die... but my own GOD did save of
I>>> WHY???>>
playing games of
russian roulette .. as stop the cef...>>> & wait..>> is not an option
puhlease believe>>>>> so am hammering my little self with cocktail
drugs..>> but need an increase of... <<<>>>in milligrams... FLU CEE>>> but
all & all are making me so very ill>> but i know they work>>>>> just that
i have no one close to share of what I live>>>>> to hold >>>>& say all will
be as ok>>> is what I crave... so did say to my Sn this day >> she listen
carefully>>> comprehend>>>>>> & in her eyes can see she understand... she
agree>>>>>>>>>>> this will not as be my world if I cannot then get better
from.. >>would be very wrong of all to think can spend forever in
incarcerate...>>>a prisoner of solitary... >>& I did nuttin wrong... 15
years of anti virals .. >>>>should've sounded alarm bells.....>> how ill i
be... for pity's sake... did puhlead ... as time & time again... HELP ME>>>
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is
funny word is it not... commuter is a kind of robot... conditioned to accept
of pressures... either as driver in a car in line called a jam.>>>.. as wait
at traffic lights... >>your world your life>> tick tick tock>>> >> or catch
a train... in all a crush... as all flood forward... >>. same as bus...>>>
oh my own GOD... what a word ... commuter is...>>>who thot of it... sense of
humour they did have...>>>> in your world you are as then a number in a game
of chance... who will catch..>>. what will change... forgive of me... if I
say... would rather have the ribbon road... with all of potholes>>> & to
walk as climb... or run as free... as mine>>>> is better than any of what
the city got>>. & do know I lived the lot>>>> is not a world but a
trap>>>>> as being on a hamster wheel fall off at your peril>>>> & all goes
fast>>>>will pass >>>> you by as try to keep with the pressures of>>>
got....>>> no time for nuttin else..>>>. not even then to take a
breath...>>> as BREATHE>>. as DEEP.>> >>> as stop to think>>>
SO THEN do this..
escape... on this thing called holiday... as travel becomes singular... so
again as go in crush >>> as is upwards in a plane... & queue to get on
same>>> fly away... >>. a different kind of commuter be..>>> call of this a
holiday...>>>>>
for me when I am
free.. have got this strategy of what will do> for me>>>>>>> & is so
clever... to escape the pressures of...>>> & know what ??? it will work>>>
clever that I be.>>>>. ofcourse cannot share with thee... cos then you will
want as do the same as me... & then no longer will it be as my
project>>>...>>>>> as in my heart... as in my brain... is as I say... you
cannot mind read ... end of game.. as set & match to I....
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who
cares what others ever think>>> whats in your mind that matters >>>& if you
live your life by what others wish>>>>... you are total captive... >>>wings
are clipped...>> will never ever hold as... >>>>to your heart.>>>.. for one
simple reason >>>>> were never ever brave enuf..>>>>> others more
courageous then>>>... will be swift...>>> not miss opportunity... they will
step in & take >>>>from thee..>> what could've been>>>
>
you then have learnt a
lot>> too late>>>>.. what's on the mind of others>>>> matters not>>> WHO
CARES...... >>> is whats within of yours... >>> as heart.. to brain...
& FACT IS FACT.. NONE CAN MIND READ... please believe>>>>you might think
with all your insecurities they can...>>>>> but none can see what's in a
heart... only those who first have shared... >>> have inside info on the
case>>>>>
& then with eyes as
share a look... between of two>> no other ever can perceive is but
impossible>>> to read>>> is invisible>>> is as ESP ... betwixt of me...
betwixt of you>>>>.... will always be ...>>>> locked in time a look as
yours... a look as mine>>>
as then does
accelerate a growing love...>>> which leads on as then to fall in love>>> as
nurtured then from my own GOD
hands touch take is mine to say... as is
kiss kiss..is bliss.. & more>>>> no others ever can they steal...or take>>>>
my precious words>> for they>>>>as I alone am but the girl who fights on as
tiger in this world>>> as amen kiss kiss... how i say. to my own GOD>>>. or
then again... as epitaph.....>>> >>> your hair your eyes... look DEEPER YOU
NOW be HYPNOTIZED>>>> bye bye...
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>>>
& have been low... you be the same ... if were I... >>>>>THE AMAZING THING
IS STILL WRITE DIARY... >> LAUGH... CRY... FULL of shades of love am I>>>>>
just as child >>>is taught >>.. as how to count from one to ten... all of
emotion from within my heart... >>> as loving from the very start...>>& i
see so many lacking in..>>> fact is fact...>>>. most... are zero rated...>>
VACANT>>>> ... ... androids. be>>>.. thank own GOD is not me>>>> got
abundance of.>>>>. all of love>> DO NOT BE threatened by>>>>><>>>am me>>>
am just a little see saw...>>>> is STRANGE.. phenomenon..>>>.most would
rather say>>as use>>>> f---off .. than>>> i do love>>> >>> why there
be>>> much greed... many wars>>> & megalomaniacs...in this world cos few
have UNDERSTANDING OF>>>>
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But
as a writer ... as composer>> as musician>>>... now can analyze... >>as
wish to comprehend the meaning.>> so when compose of music.. love with
ease will then translate>>>
concede > as from all of mail>> fall in love or shades of>>> if
strong enuf>>>>>can overcome of anything.. so powerful>> as>>>> turn
compleX to simpliS... >>> as easiest...>>> so where there is a will
>>>there sure has got to be a way as to resolve... make all ok>>>
>>>>> to have to hold>> this kind of love>>> >> as in your arms as
for own>>> >> & others be as envious...as jealous... they would
steal>>>>> but is so incredible>>> love as this>>> is 100% as non
transferable>>>cannot be given on demand...> to any other in the land>>>
&& so>>>>to meet the one who does as this>>>>>>turns your world upside
down..>> when you see... of they>>>> you melt>>> with tenderness as
for>>> & why in the shortest time...>> suddenly>>> you find the meaning
.. as to why... you then exist...>>> as gives to thee a reason as to
live>>>>>>>> a feeling so deep so precious..>> absolute as
wonderful>>>> that you never did as comprehend of what as then was
happening...>>
& would give of everything of all you own... to keep secure &
safe this special person... who has come to be the meaning >>>>of your
entire world>>>>
a
kiss as fleeting.. >>promises of passion deep>>> that then is only
yours to keep>>..& so you be the luckiest..
>>> how you KNOW.. when fall >>> is yours>>> is simple>> do
believe>>>> this person is as then >> is with as on your
mind>>>>>>every wakening moment>>>every day>> at any given time>>> never
leaves your being>>>> as they then become your reason>>>> as for living
>>> breathing>>>... >when to see>>>>is ecstasy>>> & would detour as
circumnavigate... this globe>>>>..>>> just for the shortest swiftest
glimpse that makes you feel as king.. or queen>>> > & when you close
your eyes at night... your dreams>> > are they>>>>>>> & every touch>>
every word they say... kisses you dream of>>>>>> & all the love..>>
they then could bring>>> just emanates > as captivates>>> as cannot take
your eyes off they>> that love you got>>>>>> does build on >>> yet
more strong>>>> more & more of love..>> upon>>> if that were ever
possible>>>
this special person has then become your >> world > knowing they
are close>>>> all anguish.. sadness >>> evaporates>>> as vaporizes when
as then>>>>as for a moment... >>as in time... you see their smile>>> as
eye to eye a look transfixed.. >>
& no other could as be aware... the depth of such as shared>>>
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little words>>> as>> i have fallen deep in>>LOVE >>> so very
beautiful>>> or as shades of same.. >> as dedicate...>> in spades>>>to
all who SAVE>> at my own hospital>>> as george michael>> did>> as
does>>> of yest.. >>> he say>> they fought for he... while out of
it...as comatose>>>& has never stopped as saying>> THANKYOU> for>>>>>>
they did not let him go without a fight...>>>...>>> press conference>>>
held >>> >to TELL THE WORLD>>>>
that
FOR SURE>>>
SBQ CHANGES
YOU
repeat
as mantra>>> love >>> will conquer all>>> whether shades>> or fall>>
as highest high at apeX...> any love begins>.. with this..>>>>>>>>>>
RESPECT.>
>>> >>. & so please then do APPRECIATE...>> respect only builds
from >>FAITH >>> & TRUST>>
& >> christmas spells of just one word >>>> >>> from own GOD>>>
>>THAT of.>.. LOVE>
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.>&
the sadness in my heart... from mail>>> as virtual>>> as all do comprehend
.. as my diary of yest>>>> there are those who have lost entire worlds to
neuro B... > even tho is rarity..>> heartbreak from all devastate...>.> a
family who did as all to save >as fought > unable then to work.. not as
they as sick>> but still they> lost of everything to try in vain to save
their son...>> hospital >> & cef>>> <<>> was all too late.. even with re
mortgaging.. & taking work at nights.. so never did they sleep...> & as two
as mother father...>>> as parents.. taking turns to see> to take.. to be as
with>>>>their sick child>>>>> & christmas is to they the saddest always....>
as in response to what I did say of yest.. >>>> many did relate...>> & I
CANNOT READ OF EVERY>>or reply as personal>>> AM SO VERY VERY SORRY>>>> BUT
I WRITE... my DIARY>>> FOR ALL TO SEE>>> i understand...>> I SHARE>
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>am
not paid for being patient doing cef...>> as some might think AM same as
they.. go to hosp >>>>as a job>> so after... all is FAB.. got all the
time as mine.. to do as what i like>>>
with
respect... is easy to 4get that what is not as obvious.. am sick>>> & i
got to work as also>>> on top of all>>>& find time as afterwards to do
as all>> as of they. AS HOLD A WORLD>>as play>>>
. but as
feeling hellish sometimes do.. ..>>>>> neuro B has taken much as i
fight in isolate>> not as lonely.. but certainly ALONE>>>
> only
I>>>>>> & my immense intelligence that does & did prevent... being left
with nada .. nil as zero... >>NUTTING>>>> >as no roof as overhead>>>> as
it> is not my work.. as going hospital>> >>> professional patient...>>
be SO funny if not so serious.. >>>> & none do say.. or think>>> of that
as aspect but the opposite....>>>that some may think am EARNING THERE
>>> as they>> it be my work>>
>BUT>> not
on purpose .>> as their mindset>>>
.. just
that is so easy to forget when strong is but the weakest link.. to look
at me... & seem to be so capable... when inside ... i cry as die with
stress of all>>>>
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&
takes entire waking day of every... week>>>> & of more...>> as
time...>from me.. my music suffers great..>> AND THAT IS WORK AS
ALSO>>>> && as not as just as did from venFs..>> but piccline inner
elbow right..>> as PICCLINE>>>>does affect believe of it...>>> & losing
nails>> & losing voice.. as throat from poor immunity.. or allergy...>>
&.>>>>>> discounting that i do not feel>>>>as how you say as not the
best> as doing cartwheels when as full of drugs as fighting bugs>> &
also one to one... as training others>>. & teaching in a world of
fitness>> while lost> a world as a mermaid.. <<<>> blown clean away>>> &
THAT IS ONLY SOME OF THINGS.. as others never mention here...>> my
diary..
. as
anything as said as with my doctor... is not as talking or as sniping..>
behind the back of ANY>>>
. for
GOODNESS SAKE.. IS HIGHLY PRIVATE>>> as answering questions as are asked
as honestly by he to me>>> is sacrosanct as private... as is
personal>>
but i
share so much.. TO HELP>> of my world AM GENEROUS...& many love>>> to
read of every>>
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>
BUT
BETTER THAN BY FAR.. THAN WAY IT WAS> THE HELL>>> OF DAYS>>>OF YOUR
YEARS>> before diagnosis..>>>>>>
so am now at this thinking as of ALICE ...
1428... DO YOU BLAME..>> goodbye is high...>>> on my agenda>>>>
but still it might be as roulette... to stop the cef as craziest.. as
take a CHANZ>> have come too far>>>>to risk it... but still i dream of
being free.. as being me...>>>
so if not
for own tenacity... as how you say... >>> doing cartwheels>>> KEEP the
courage.. & the strength.. it takes to overcome.. to RUN... when feel
>>> >>>to put as >bluntly>>> ill>>>> > & brain exhaust as calling
shots be easier to say.. know what... i no longer care.. to fight... of
this... is not a world>>> is not a life... >>>>
>> > &
there are costings as per travelling...>>> >of each & every... as seems
of nuttin.. it is not...>>when doing all alone...>>with no help from
any.. as of none...>>>>>> so hospital is not my work.. i must find ..
all of energy.. all resources>>>> to hold a world somehow together...
><< there is no magic safety net... none as saying there there there...
>>>>i pay your bills..>>>> i do home repairs...>>> & gardening...>>> i
earn money as to keep.. your body.. & your soul>>>>as wolf as from the
door>>>>
>> &&& in
the main is families who mail as say>>>> as then convey>>>>> as most to
me.. >>those they love ... no longer here..>> are gone as to
eternity...>> there heartbreak is so BAD>> so tangible>>>>> & they>>>>
are not as able as to keep a diary... so appreciate...>> mine so very
much.. IS WHY I WRITE>>>
& all of
music>>> brings strength to BUILD THEIR WORLDs BACK >>>>
my arms long enuf ... as strong enuf>>>
to wrap around your body & your heart.. wherever you are...>
> i am
here at diary.. i wish i could help financially.. it breaks my heart to
read...>>> as cannot do of this.. >
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>
but i did take delivery as to my home a little card... as someone fought
to find...& send as very basic with address... but I did ... get>>>>> as
how they say of snail of mail>> did work as wonderful>>>> & so what was
said so beautiful> i pray that you will find the strength.. >>> to carry
on as everyday.. but is nothing I can do as say.. to change...the sorrow
that i feel>>>> as very deep... as when I read >>>>> >>
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LISTEN TO
THIS.>. THE VIOLINS... is A MASTERPIECE OF MUSIC.. writing>> from
a genius...>> and the words... as lyrics be.. as truest true... take
for granted as we do>>>> until that person leaves your world as this
girl>>in song as gone>>>> as day will come for me to be as Alice... do
recuperate.. i do pray>>>>
is
so sweet.. a story written in a song.. >> impressively>>> a classic....
she walked to the
door with her head held high.. & just for a moment i caught her eye..
such a
poignant line that says goodbye...
rarest combo.. happy song... to sing along.. but lyrics ache of
heartbreak>>> & the line i quote >>
written clever...goodbye as said... >>>with
dignity>>>>>> but beautiful>> as from little child.... >>>her world there...
now is time to go elsewhere>>>
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So
no>>> is not>>> as many thought.... about my hospital>> have much as
always>>>going on within my world>>>> hospital as part of>>> but
essential >>.. they save of me>>> so must juggle ... as STRUGGLE... as
to cope.. as manage all>>> this can distress.. as do my best.. is never
quite enuf... tho many say i be remarkable> or I do amaze>>> but to me..
it feels relentless... > & ofcourse it is.. unless i have a death
wish>>>
>> not outstanding doing cef...>> just DO IT... as get on with .. >>>
got no choice... > reality for now is do or die>>>> as beat defeat.. >
>>> if decide... on being FREE>> so important is for me...>> be suicide
..>>> as of now... but the longing>>> as it grows as deep inside... to
be as thee>> & he & she.. as you... as they as them as those... >>&
the>> tragedy of lyme disease.. if allowed as to progress...>> CAN
>>>>>>> destroy all immunity... then become as neuro B.. complete AS
DIFFERENT ENTITY>>> >>> suffering as guaranteed>>> >>
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so
my diary... .. >.. as written >>gifted then to google>>> & my music..
they do hold>>> forevermore... as youtube>> set to be as BIG AS
EPIC>>> .. the creative >> reference library>> as that of>> Scot>>>
proud of>>> Andrew>>> id.. be >>> Carnegie > & so>>> as youtube hold
all & all my current work>> is set to grow...>>>> am greatly humbled as
to be>>> frontpages of.. singer songwriters>>>there >> as>>from the very
start...>>> as always... &&& now in pole position> Lizzie Lane>>>> am
made in heaven... that they adore >>the genius >>> to compose... as
classical>>> these giants of the internet... will not rest.. till
story told>>> to Gods own world>>>
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repeat
as mantra>>> then as this>>> faith as foundation then... does build>>>
>> all of trust... both together as in tandem.. earn > all
respect...>> or>>> by another route>>.>>> can also then be born>>> of
truth &>>> complete in honesty>
>as sure as flip side.. is as this >>>>born >> from school of retro
etiquette...>>> lies & deepest greed only ever build>>>>> envy >>> as
of jealousy as they both feed deep deceit>>>
but then as opposite... so very true>>> faith... & trust...>>
will bring to you>>> more than just respect..>> but >>> a LOVE SO
WONDERFUL>>>> SO STRONG>>> you NEVER EVER THOUGHT COULD OWN... AS KNOW>>
AS KNOWN>>> as BE as YOURS >>> NEVER WILL AS EVER FIND AGAIN..
>>>if YOU LIVED A THOUSAND YEARS>>>.. please BELIEVE>>> than this love
I do bring to my diary... >>> encompass... all these things>>>> but if
you find then of your own>> a love as deep as this with someone...>>>
don't let go>>> or risk of ever losing it>>>...>>>
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>>
my own speak as is most unique... >>>& is from my own heart be sure of
that>>> is as this>>>>>>>> finger tips.. to. nippity toes>>> love as
then as deeper grows>> >>> oh if only i could as would as show>> as to
explain... from once was born... from deep within my memory... would
share>>> but>>>> to my own GOD... my heart already is an open book...
>> thru this my DIARY... written up in all of TRUTH>>> that i
gift>>>as give..>>to each & every>>> as>> thousands globally
>>growing constantly>>>>the universe.. has never seen the likes>> of
Lizzie Lane>>>> many as who read from start... know more of I than my
late>>> maternal grandmama... >>>>>>> >> >>> & &&& am now as on this longest
journey>>>>
that i pray... is to
RECOVERY>>>>
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>
>
not allowed as to 4get>>>>>>>
take as said>>>> my own God is having none of it>>>> feel my love>
will always be...> the ultimate in my memory>>>>>> >>>>
so of late of last>> all did adore>>>.. as beautiful>> haunting &
emotional>>>>> another song.. as given all of thee a choice.. as taste
in music... is as this... as personal>>> as lips to lips... as the
sweetest most delicious kiss..>>>> either boy or girl>>>>..>
to feel my love>>> most personal of touch>>> >>> or as
chris deBurgh...>>his
finest hour >no denying>>> lonely sky..>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>.
kiss kiss.. bye bye.. as always please stay close
to I>>.
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on
say my name... sunshines thru rain>>>>unique of speak>>>as hide as
seek>>>as sacre bleu>>> wot am i supposed to do>>> only ever was
there... you>>>>> as fact is fact> KNOW WOTS WOT>>>> as its allowed>>>
as granted permit...>>> to say NO>>> or PASS OF GO>>> as nope as nada
>>> nil as zero>>>> as here I be.. at diary>>> >>>>> and you all
request...>>>>>& so say thankyou>>> as tatu>>>>for sending as wishing
me..>>> of all & every>>> as much of muchness>>> love>>>> as big >>>as
bigger... as the size >gob>>>>>of dubL make it TRIPL>>GGG..>>> or as the
opposite>>>> of honesty>>> lies as feed...>>> >>>as deepest greed>>>
all things obscene>>>> >>>> those that know as nutting of the
truth>>>be zero>>>> >> much of muchness does equate>>> to highest high
of happiness>>> >>> or then again as that of love>> as in abundance>>>>
is descriptive>> way OF LIZZIE SPEAK>>> as much of muchness>> then to
say>>>>> as i love you will you love me>>>> recip with ditto soonest
puhlease> composer genius.. xx girl>>> you cannot just shut out the
world>>> >>
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As
TRY>& TRY IS WORD stay remain as strong... BELIEVE OF ME nuttin works.
>>& in between... have written up.. my diary.. to share>>> in effort
to convince myself>> all will be OK>>>>>
as fight alone with no
one>>>>>close>>>>> but truth be told>> am terrified.. > deep
inside>>>>no matter how >>or what I do... will never ever see this
thru>> >>>>> >>>makes me think to be as gone... RUN AWAY AS FROM>>> &
>>> & am sure is why my memory does haunt... wont let go>>>>> as never
can I quite believe>>> is making me remem of each & every... > little
thing>>> as time as place>> as when as where>>> but is better that i
got>> than not>>> >> be as zero nada none at all>>>& so as to divert >>
my thoughts>>>> my brain from tipping to insane>>>>>> take some of
strain>> as stress>>> to melt away>>>>
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too much as LEVELED
AT>>> as dealing with... & others MUST return of calls>> am sorry
for>>>never a moment that is all>> my pcp family have
priority...>> & so need to know of what is best... >> as what to do>>>>
& there are girls as friends... & terror does as melt when
with...>>> better than hypnotherapist<>> as medical one is
this>>>>>>but>> not involved with neuro B..>>>> both simply are
good friends to me......>>> so when we meet>>> as when am with... as was
of yest... for shortest .. all of stress just vanishes...>
is as this... forget am sick
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>>
so tired with brain
exhaust> must be reason for... >>> so but check>>... & is correct...>>>
does make me think... >>>>there is a ghostly part of memory... that
remains... has this hold>>..>> as lingers>>> wont release>> of grip>>> is
it sub C... born of protect>>> just don't know reason for>>> &... see as
clear>>> so many things>>> as if they were of yest>>>>> so is time was
asleep>>>because I must be losing it..>> with all of traumatize>>> >this
song...>> gift... >>>.from
I is lullaby.. nite nite>>
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as
wake as tired... & all i say of animate you all do replicate... by
rsvp>is as music...language universal> comprehensible>>> fully
understandable>>> the concept...>>> artists recreate amazingly...>>>
senses given from own GOD... >> yet was commissioned as a game... >a
fantasy... how amazing that those>>>>>>>> as I >>>>> can see through
this..>>>.that such characters illustrate... > .. reach as sure as touch
all hearts..>> & if do not...<>> do you then think>>> you could as just
be as devoid...>>> when man made is as beautiful as this>>>>> as tiara
of electric light that glows in dark from distance... bright... >>
across the water many miles>>> as shimmering... as star like>>>>>> as
line of diamonds... emeralds... rubies... sapphires every colour of the
rainbow...>>. glows>>>> how I love to witness>>. >>>>> but then
again the stars GOD gives ...>> so awesome>>> so immense.. my own
GOD create of them.. every one as SUN... within another world>>> HOW
BEAUTIFUL>>> & this.>> beauty is but everywhere... >>> >>> >>>for all to
share..>> IS FREE>>>a favourite word..> to me>>>
& then
created> by lyricist... words as this>>>>>> >>>> i believe was meant to
be...>> darling.. can you hear my heart beating... you belong with
me...>>> >> & words can so as reach the soul>>as say
my name... sunshines thru the rain... >> whole world so lonely>> then
you come & ease the pain... don't want to lose the feeling... >>>>> >>
DO bequeath to one & all who come to diary...>>> as hands touch take
you got am safe... or as this>>> amen kiss kiss... >>> as out of >>> as
climb on wire.. again to fight>>>>>>>> ANOTHER DAY IN PARADISE>>>>>
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>>..
& reluctantly admit... of yest to.. rda...> who came to see>>> > need
of help to find>>> >> so was> ward 4...>>> with fdf>>>> as she was
working with>>>>>>> while>>> all of else does crumble that
surrounds>>> my world >> as my diary... & more>>> is hopeless>>>
seems>>>> as struggling to HOLD>>>> would have lost my grip..>>> for
sure>>> if not for something of own intrinsic...
that makes me
fight>>>>as dynamite>>> BUT I am so sorry for>> no diary>>>>
as comprehend the strength it brings to many>>> but don't you see>>.>>
AM STILL AS WITH... fighting this>>.. means... am managing to hold EVEN
IF IS>>by my fingertips to vertical>>> hill>>>>> as wall of dreams..> so
very steep>>> my own sub C... & BRAIN EXHAUST... as powerful calling all
the shots... no diary.. no lullaby>>> no music... reinforce as for me to
play as hands to brain>> i fall apart... >>>but> antihist tho i hate>>
to take>> makes me feel as half asleep.. does calm>> as dampen down
immunity>> perhaps is what's attacking me>> erroneously>> >>>> need the
calming influence for skin>>>>>of antihist>>>>>>> am under fire
everywhere>>>>>>> in every sphere>>>>>>> thank own GOD>>> for all as
near>>>> as thee as he... as she... as them as those>>> my own intrinsic
memory holds>>>...>> as powerful>> as reasoning as for not as giving
in...>> as keeping on the will & want>>>>in
combo with... my own song... as this>>.>>. amen kiss kiss...>>> stay
close stay with
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&&&
in my dreams.. >>.. time cannot erase>> is but the opposite....
increases...>>as>>> repair.. more & more>> .. does grow>>>>>>>>all
that rather would as could forget>>>>>>>>>so this word>>
TRAUMATIZE>>>>> does not come close>>>>>>>>> you REALIZE>>> to saying
how it was>>> IT IS>> as>>> truth be told> there is not a word in any
language...> such as ENGLISH>>>> that would graphically describe>>> >>>>
>>> all of what I hold inside>>> & forever have to hide>>>>
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>>>>>so
my diary changes>> >> it now as MUST protect my heart..>>> from further
onslaught of attack>>> .. the mess.. from brain infect>>>>> a world
taken clean away>>>>>>BANG
BANG SHOT DOWN...
>> &>..>> SO without my own beliefs... could NEVER EVER DO of WHAT I
DO>>> AS ASKED OF I...>>>>>
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THANK
GOD scientists .. in USA & GERMANY>>> >>>> have labs light years ahead
of UK..>> in respect of profiling>>> seeking finding...>>> when
neurofilaments.. as mine 118>>>>> they could not believe of results they
see>>& ME... still
walking breathing>>> & of THEN>>>> a hippo sitting on my head.. with
biggest rear.. squeezing squashing.. PRESSURIZING >>> a bullet shot at
point blank range did ricochet as thru my brain>>> severity... of
PAIN...>>>> 6 inch nails hammered home.. extracted with exacting
force...>> i would SCREAM>>> as hold my head>>> COULD NOT MOVE AS
BREATHE>>> THE ICE COLD EVIL OF ENCEPH... MAKE ME SICK>>>>> & the
poisoning as vomited from all of toxins...> THEN MY NECK GOT VERY
STIFF.. my SPINE DID ACHE... as athlete.. this did tear apart & break my
heart.. & still none could see... what dragging feet did do to me>>>>
as STRONG YOU BE THE WEAKEST LINK>>> IN THIS WORLD OF MEDICINE
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>>>
all of all>>>> creativity>>>>>> as Lizzie Lane story one day will be told>>>
. & could as be>>. >>>>>born as of Sony>>> as biggest big in japan... >>>
the land of rising sun>>> or great & good of hollywood>>> >>>
as SBQ...> >>>
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>was
there ever music work as so composed ... purest genius..
TRUTH BE TOLD>>
as gifted to this world>>> classical in entity>>>>>> such as lennon &
mcCartney>>> Beethoven.. >> Mozart>> Tchaikovsky Bach >>> >>> as written
for PIANO... GUITAR... or ORCHESTRA> ditto benny & bjorn>>> as outta
CHINA... >> born>>. NOT OF THEY AS LITERALLY>>> BUT as CHINESE>>> discover
all of WEST is BEST as when does come to melody...>>> the plink plink plonk
of their own work does not compete>>> to say of this>>>>> ...as aBBa rich
as B&B>>> ... >>> oh >>>mama mia...>
or bang bang as boomerang>>>
what you give out... > you get returned...>>>>>
as good to good>> same as own GOD>> then again>>> as opposites>>>>>..
nuttin truer than a song...>>RICHES BORN>>> benny & bjorn>>>>>>> for concise
& oxford... terminology... to be as>> RICH>> as> this>>>>>.. equates >>
>>>>> more of wealth than ORIENT>>>>> OR entire bank of SWEDEN>>>>
genius composers>>>
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&
when very ill > >
recorded work>>> as musical>>>> in my bedroom>>>
dubLd for a studio>>>>> guitar... &
piano>>> have you any comprehension>>> just how >>> very difficult>>> to
write compose & play & then sing perform>>>when as this.. >> so very
sick>>>> whilst doing all of technical>>> & the genius... was> >>>>>>all>>
written for an orchestra
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&
when am free to be as ME>>> which>>> if could .. would... GO ...>>> as of>>
TOMORROW>>>INFACT TODAY>>> escape as soonest>>> > IF COULD >> IF CAN>> IF
DARE.. to BE as GONE >>>>> AS of NOW >>>>OF ANYWHERE>>> OH i so DESERVE >
to be as BETTER>>>>> > be as FREE>>>>> >>>> AM>>> as VERY grateful to all
of those... who take greatest>> care >> my nurses.. my doctors>> those who
run my hospital>>>>>>
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>&
cannot comprehend those who have their
freedom>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> why they work or stay>>> as hold
a world>> in ANY place with any persons>>> that makes them miserable>> as
unhappiest>>>>>> life they say>>>> is way to short...>> >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
what matters most>>>is to be with>> who>>>>>>> as those>>>> you love>>>> as
true>>> >>> & in a place you do adore>>>...>> perfect combo>>> WHO COULD ASK
FOR MORE>>>> >>>>>>>>>
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>BUT
I ALSO LOVE OF WoH>>>>>>>&& woh>>> is acronym many ask>> westcoast of
heaven>> I fell in love>> from first... as parents brought as child>>
even tho... was BIG MISTAKE.. as error made>>> fate...>>> decreed...
>>gifted >> neuro B...>>> bang bang world gone>>> YET>>>>>> THE
MOUNTAINS... THE SEA... ALL GOD GIVES TO ME>>> > matter much as to my
world>>>
>> i need to BE>>> > as
much as i SO wish as want>>> as pray>> with musicians>>> good &
great>>>> as those within the music industry... >>> be amazing>>>>>>
>>> > & so>>>> I>>> DO >>> appreciate...many music scores>>>>>>
still>>> i will >> as would return>> to where I love>>> >>>>> as is
home to me>>>>
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MY
OWN ETHOS>>s>>> HAPPINESS>>> goes hand in hand with LOVE>>> & all of TOUCH>>
<<>>>>>>> AS with simpliS>>> >>>you GOTTEN > love>>> are then
the happiest>>> in THIS WORLD>>> & so>>>>>>> VERY RICH>>>> RICHER THAN AN
OIL SHEIK>> or RICHER THAN AS aBBa >>>new found wealth in CHINA>
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..so
if you got YOU KEEP>>> don't let love slip>> as have regrets>>>> by my own
GODs grace>>>.>>> you be as then the CRAZIEST~>> as others will step in &
take>>>
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how it feels to find and lose>>> hold a world of
regret...>> for things you never then have said>>>>> as love does leave
your grasp>>> as slip as thru your fingers fast>>>>
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so
was just as this..>>> what triggers.. greatest devastate of upset...>>is
when those that do surround >have freedom AS profound.. >BUT cannot
see>> as person say of yest to me>>of any of as another to be with.. >>
to go as on a holiday>> she did not want to go alone.. but I power feed
as to her brain.. >>& say >>> you CAN DO>>>>>>> as being on your own
>>> BE OK>>>can go of anywhere... >> means a lot>> coz I cannot>>> SO
think of this >> is not selfish.. but as opposite. you then
are>>.>>>total free >> & SHE MIGHT JUST MEET.. some guy.. on holiday by
the by>> that then does catch of her own eye>>>>> but still am not so
sure that then could see of what I meant in honesty>>>>>>>>> is for I as
traumatized with all of fight.. to know of my own mind>>>> as accurate
of where am at>>> for the things that i do crave.. >>> as ordinary
free... & plenty of normality but others don't>> as cannot see.. what
they got... as at their feet as literally.. can walk as go>> as say
goodbye> head out of door>>>
YES>>>>
I can see with clarity>>> >>>>is as simpliS to DO> as THIS>>>>>>because
of hand that has been dealt >>> am as a captive prisoner
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OH
i could illustrate as show.. if better was >> as HOW TO DO>>> AS how to
GO>>> as all ALONE>>.. as talk of all recuperate>>> so i just don't
comprehend >>>of it>>>>..
as on my own
>> as happy...>>> be of anywhere>>>FREE>>>.. as of BLISS>>>> for NOW..
reality is THIS>>> as being with a brain infect>>> >in need of cef>>>
>>&& if my own GOD.. would just say..>>>>with CERTAINTY.. Lizzie this
hell does end..... TODAY AS HERE>>>.>> you are better>>> say goodbye...
to all of every>>>> no more tears you cry>>> as you deserve the very
best>>> >>& now have freedom >>same as all the rest>>> amen kiss
kiss>>>> I so would be as out of it>>
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SO
WHERE DO I BEGIN .. as build a world all alone>> don't get me wrong.. am
strong.. can do it... >> as WILL DO IT.. finger tips to nippy toes>> my own
saying.. for love >> that could >> as would >> have grown>>>> if shown>>>
faith...>>> am as an angel always>>>>>> never ever would I hurt>>> & then
from faith>> builds trust..>> & follows fast >>> respect>> & that >>>
is but the start >> as the beginning... >>> of love>>.>>> but> to my own
GOD.. >>if make this pact.. will be AS GOOD>>>> as ALWAYS BE>>> do as
everything for thee.. if get me better as PRIORITY>> >
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.fly
2 heaven...
still
number one as highest slot of hundreds of thousands >>has been as this... from beginning... tho i cannot
recall>> but.. singer songwriters... >> frontpages >youtube>>hold
high & good>>> > as parent company google>>> they give all of love
& high esteem. to Lizzie Lane>> & i recip with ditto back to
they>>> as>. take of me >>> of everywhere globally>> so to
google >> youtube >> microsoft... & other also internet...as own
copyrights with PRS>>> >> tatu from my heart for care>>> & to my >>...>
angel of sub C.. who did disturb sleep...>> coz on full
protect..>>> reason be>>
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>..so
do not need>> of drugs to as then enhance my mood>> or light box>>> or
anything such>>> just to be with my own GOD... as often as is possible>> out
in what he gives>>>>>>>> coz be sure>>> am doing very good>>> be it
understood>>> after all that I been thru>>>
if can dance as with my teddy bear.. as to the shower> without a care>>>>
as>> always...>> don't > need of any counselling>>> AS truth
be told >>>> don't want to talk about> <<<>>>just share in diary... as my
shout>>>>>>> >> but need as less >>> of this.. as I am now>>>as my own
THERAPIST>>>
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so psychiatrist..>> psychologist... superfluous >>> >>>>>>>maybe just a
hypnotist... >> could have fun with this>>>> >>>>>
look as then into my eyes > snap of fingers...
>>>>> you as now are hypnotized>>> >>>>>
wave all of trauma then >> goodbye..>>
will not return to haunt...>>>>>>> be as gone>>> as shot down dead>>>
>>>precious memory remain unscathed>> >> Lizzie you are then as this>>>>
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ignorance.. is BLISS.. only it is not>>> it tears to bits>>> >>>> & as
then still unaware.. >>> as late of last.. many talk to I.. & say it as it
is.. not comprehending...>> connection>>>>>
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>>>
as gives me 3rd degree... >> does look>>> . but>>.. as my friend.. as
patient.>> at my hospital>>.>>>>>>>>> enquires of me..>>>>>>>> are you
behaving .>> answer she>>.>>>>.>>I got no choice in this...>>>
believe>>>>>??
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...
SBQ
for scripting good by hollywood>>> as is googles
goal>>>>>> & youtubes also>>> as Lizzie Lane composer genius same
name>>> ssssssssshhhhh
to this.. as hush>>>
as keep as close as under wraps..>>>> so as accolade been at number one
as yet again this week>> fly 2 heaven... >>>>.. singer
songwriters... youtube...>>> as hundred thousands aim for this>>>
against... all of odds... a girl from scotia... & of WoH>> does it>>>
all >> on her own.. as alone>>>>> >>> 6 songs stay as currently... all
frontpages youtube>>> tatu for your faith & trust... youtube... google>>>
for all of love>>>>>
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>
understand of THIS... is I..> AS recognize am traumatized>> by all of what
did go b4>>> pre diagnosis...>>>> is not the fault>> of those as current...
> as my own gps...>
all are good>> with me
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&
with emotions in repair..>> so very slow to heal>>> sometimes feel
they never will>>>..>> so as a child>>> CAN get hurt... >>>>>>>>>> time
& time again with different things...>> that if emotions were AS THINE...
COULD COPE WITH FINE>>> but as only do of honesty>> self protect is
difficult>>... .> > >..>>> as happens in this world>> ...... so now
when wake as of this day... as often think... with all of past..>> now
got intrinsic memory>>> so. could run as fast ... from medical.. >> my
sister>>>> & her partner... as professor>>> WOULD NOT RUN FROM THEY>>>
OK>>> ARE.. >> part & parcel of my world>>> is why i think > to
minimize.. >>>>to avoid... >>> JUST as never make no more>> appoints ..
> for more of same....>>think as this>>> they then just may forget >
do exist>>> if never see>>> of me>>>
my own my
surgery.. is not as personal but the place>>.as wait..
>>
last
time did hide away >> toytown... as alone>>> as have done >>>all of
many times b4>>>..>> >>> PLAY lets PRETEND am not> here>>>>> was not
ever bitten by infected.. tick>> none as medical would know of me>>..
>>>>> never need of md.>> gp>>..>> >> with respect. would not have been
as lived on woh..> >>> would never have gotten sick>> > as out of
it>>>>> was all of fate>>> > & trauma really came from bang bang
bang a world gone...>>>> when POISONED systemic>>> > PAIN. forever
always>> as baby antibix dif purpose>>.. fought to save..>.. as dox of
then convinced was normal >> . this> >>...>>> as die b4 their
eyes>>...>>> is there any wonder why.. never want as to return...>
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am
am in a circuit >>> brain exhaust...>> calls shots>>>> then cannot do of
diary.. or music..>>> sleep dominates>>>body takes>>> & so I>> just
crave normality>> as thee or she or he... to be as ordinary> as them
as those>>>&>>> one day.. go>> & then recuperate .. > never need of any
hospital>> or of medical>>>> please understand.. take my hand...>>in
own unique of speak >> >> as crazy>>as is funny>>>> as a game of hide &
seek> MUSIC SHOULD HAVE BEEN ENTIRE WORLD>>> so> many try to find>> of
me>>>> but> there is no need>>>> >>>> am waiting here... at diary>>>>
can you not see..> as then compre>>> am reaching out to thee>> >&
thee>>>>> so hands touch take>>> for pity's sake>>>> when you got>>
then I am safe>> & recip with ditto>>> all of same>>>as by rsvp>> is
not a game.. is love i bring >> as unconditional>> to one & all>>>open
arms... wide... wrap & hold so very tight....>>> or as this>>> >
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so>>>>
in my own speak>>> real unique>>>> HELLO >>> GOODBYE...>>>>> >>>as WITH
many>> who are new to diary... > find all truth & honesty >>> way i
be>>>REFRESHING>>> >>> say... as wonderful>>hold all LOVE>> from my own
GOD.. >>>> > as is said.. >>>>> I WILL>>. as>> YOU WILL>> >> then as be>>>
as close to me>>> in diary>>> as>>> granted permit... to pass go>>.. >> >
not as for>> eternity>>>>>>>>or > made up neat>>>> with st pete...>>>>>>>>>>>..>>>>>
> could be as hot>> as non exotic>>> another way to say.. >>>take a
shovel>>>>>you will need>>>>> BUT>>>>>> better where >>> is cold>>> >>> as
cool>>> is better way to be>>> >>>>>> fact is fact>>>nil does equate>>as>
NOPE>>..>>>>>>>> as nada... then is>>> ZERO>>>>> >> >>>>>> as subtract>>>
as retrovert>> as going then of nowhere>> as DOING IN MY HEAD>>>> what>
could be easier... than just to sigh>>>>>>>>> as hair as eyes.. as> old
levis..>>>> if as then you're hypnotized>>>>> >>
touch.. >> must be> as mine.. as this>>> as sensitive... >>>> as lips to
lips>>> called a kiss>>>> >> & the taste>>>is but the ultimate >>> the
sweetest >>>>> heaven cannot
better this...>>>>> & my own sis did say on telephone.. of
yesterday>>>... >> bet none>>> have ever met>>>> >>as true.. or never>>
likely too>>> any ever quite like you>>>>
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.
& another thing.. if you love you never leave>>> as go
away>> >>> as you will>> surely>> lose..&. never find
again>>...>>>> > love is but a rarity...> >> in>>
this world > you must fight for everything>>> it is as treasure...>>
diamonds.. rubies<<>> sapphires>> emeralds>>>>> so if you GOT love>>>... >>
are richer than>> any king or queen or president... >or oil sheik.. have
said b4...> their wealth can never buy>> is but pie in sky>>>> >>>..>>
as seminars...>>>have taught>>>>> >>>it is so.>> >>> RARE>>>> TO
FIND.. so keep love safe>>> as always>>> or then again>>> FLIP SIDE>>>> >>
AS bitten by infected tick>> >>>>> >>... as... million trillion
billion...>>chanz>>> lyme
disease to neuro B >>>> so with respect>>> have had enuf of fate>>>>>>
i used to think that i was strong.. i realize that i was wrong...>>>>>hands
touch take>>> if you got then I am safe>>> or is it as >>>>amen
kiss kiss... as absolute>> & out of it...
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is what i meant
of earlier.. when say do run fastest from>>> as in other
direction>>>>...>> have
constant fight>> to stay as strong>>>> as to win..>> as high
on wire everyday>>> paradise>> >> alone>>>you think is easiest
.. think again>>> as experiment.. heaven sent..>> bequeath... to
thee.. neuro B.... > >> >>so sssshhhh>>>>
as hush>>>> >>>
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please don't tease>>> >>>>
is ok.. >for bti.. a friend of mine>>> & as patient also>>
do love of she>>> &..> > she does know of I>>>>
>> > > & be sure of this> many have got partners >>>>>> ..>>>>
but you all repeat as reiterate>>>maybe once>>>>>>> when better>>>>>>>
will fall .>> as said as a joke > DO SUPPOSE>>> you
are>>> as one>>> as all>> in love>>> >as from
my diary>>> is
kind...>>> to say>>> that then can go & stay>>>>>>>> with>...
those as they.. as faraway>>> in many other countries>>>>>. as he<<>> as
she>>> as... everybody... welcomes me>>>>>>> >>>
apparently>>> .. > >>>>>> AS SHADES OF.. has
GOT to be>>>
because >>>>> >> is but a joke... you cannot >>> fall
in love>>> if do not know>> is impossible>>>
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.>>
post fluconazole >>> recover from.. HUGE IMPACT >>>>.. ON BUG ATTACK>>>
no longer MULTIPLY... THEY DIE>>> as DRUGS DID obliterate.. with
certainty.. hammered me ..>> in combo with>>>> cocktail born out of
hell>>>> now MY body in recovery... as hair & nails>> GROW AGAIN>>> & skin
>> >> is better>> too>>> rash cleared>>>>> atoV.. not yet sure>>>>>>> but
immunity still is low>>>>>>>>>>>>>> & bti say > to I>>> as gives me 3rd
degree... >> does look>>> . but>>.. as my friend.. as patient.>> at my
hospital>>.>>>>>>>>> enquires of me..>>>>>>>> are you behaving .>> >??
answer she>>.>>>>.>>I got no choice in this...>>> believe>>>>>??
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bti >>> as friend... >> who has partner take of she to hospital as
always>>...>>> has become as close to me>>> ..as confidant >> tho only see
infrequently>>>> she did say to I...>>> the other day...when asking of
romancing...>> is done for fun... with twinkles in her eyes...>>> i
reply>>> >>> as >>> yeh she will get an invite.> if ever i go craziest>>>..
>> do smile>>> as asked...>> but there is no danger of>>>> >>> if ever I
go absent without leave>>> >>> but her own mantra is as this...> there
will be someone out there.. just>> for thee>>> >>> & I just looked direct at
she.. >> get offers >>>>>>>> >> but>>> after all of past i do run
fast...>>>> with RESPECT>>> > opposite direct>>> as> from...>> all of
same...>>>>>>>> is not that i don't want.. is just can take no more... >>>am
on self protect >>>> of little self>> & she just smiles & says as knowingly
>> as does repeat ...there will be someone wait and see>>>
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illustrate
with many pix >>> how sick>>> once was I>>..>>>>> as some as taken>>> then
on cef for>>> months >>... yet contrast >>>>highly visible>>>>> from those
as getting better...>>>> from those as ill>>> own medic sis ...>>> did...
say when see>> as visiting...>> where she stay far away>>>ITALY>>>>
that>>>... look much much better than did >>>> is visible as undeniable>>> &
yet she did see when so ill of this year...>>> with stress.. >> >>> as under
attack endemic virus>>>> so now @ 1303...>>> if cease of drugs...>>> such
as cef... & atoV...>>> b4..>> all infection has been cleared>>> as GONE>>
never to return>> all of this would be for NUTTIN>>>>... >> >>as made up
neat & with st pete
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&
many mail as new to diary...> ask of me>intrigued..
>> what are numbers all about? >>> as once upon a time>> when very sick
as little muppet > or dummy D... my own speak >>> for bang bang
gone...>>>.>>> could not think for brain fog.. > pain &
poisoning>>>>...>>>> began the count>>>> to reach 365...>> as foolishly
thought as better be... >> be free as all of thee>>>> when first began
iv cef>>> was thought cupL weeks would do the trick>> then be
better>>>>>> not a chanz >> but then>> with ignorance of many in
medicine.>>>>. about very different organisms..>> as Linus Sweden...
Victoria USA...>>THE
TRAGEDY>>> >> of LYME DISEASE>>> when left too late... erodes
immunity.. passes to the brain...>> & neuro B is end game>>> so on
these pages... <> EDUCATE>> is name of game>> SO IT NEVER HAPPENS THEN
AGAIN
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neuro
..>>>as B... >>>>for BORRELIA..>>> many species of bacteria...>garninii...
azafelli>> sensu stricto.. burgdoferi>> forgive the spelling>>>>> some are
parasites...>>>> babesia...> bartonella>>> & ehrlechia...>>> & SOME not B
are of E>>>>>same effect as deadly>>>>> & so GOOGLE giants in this
sphere...>>> >> who build...my world >> take..> Lizzie Lane>>&& > MAKE me
VERY STRONG AGAIN>>>in all ofTRUTH & HONESTY>>...>>> they will script..
ENTIRE STORY>>> with great & good of HOLLYWOOD>>>>> >>> the score
complete>>>> >>>>>>>>>>>> for SBQ>>>>
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been so ill>>>> >>> so little prayer... as make a pact with my
own GOD... coz WITH RESPECT... >>> have had enuf of being sick>>>>
our
father... listen THIS>>>>am always good... >>be IT understood>>> so will
YOU please>>> by rsvp>>>... >>> get me better>> soonest>>>> set me
free......>>> as all of others seem to be...>> >>> & take for granted
totally>> & am not as envious... or jealous..>> of any>>>> as he or
she.. or them or those...>>>>>> or any other just because>>>I would be
the same for sure... >>if had not got so very sick>> as bitten by that
stupid tick>>> why was it I>>????> CAN YOU PUHLEASE just
CLARIFY>>...>> I wasn't bad >>... >>>or misbehaved... >>> just in wrong
puhlace>> >> by twist of fate...>> that froze & locked my world
down>>>>> this is rare phenomenon... a world stops..>>> as bang bang
bang a world gone>>>>> in a deep subconscious sleep>>>> ..>>>>all I now
as need>>> is normal >>as in ordinary >> as put as this...
>>>>>>>>>>be absolute as perfect bliss>>> but don't matter much what
others say... I will then be gone as far away... >>> all alone
>>recuperate...> call it longest ever holiday>>>> amen kiss kiss AM OuT
OF IT>>>
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do
you as then recall>> > from earlier of diary>>> THIS>> little prayer...>>>>
as full of love>>> >>>>>>
my> arms are the>>>strongest...as open widest>>>>>... wrap around >your
body .. & your heart>>>as then protect>>>>> & take thee with >>.. to my own
world >>> of happiness>>>>>>
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so
own GOD say.. >>>did give>>> to me>>>>> THIS LYME DISEASE... THAT THEN
BECAME NEURO B >> & my reply>> to he>>>>> WAS BIG MISTAKE>> WITH
CERTAINTY>>>
>> BEEN
made to fight... as tiger>>>> in this WORLD>>> not as make for fast
ESCAPE>>>> AS EXIT>> >> straight to highway of eternity>>>>> but BRING
HOPE>>>> to many...>>> show as how>>. to beat as then
defeat>>>>>>>>
>>
SO>>> am training up in self defence.. to level now of blackest>>>>>
belt>>>>> colour that does illustrate>>> as signify>>>>> all of
heaven born strength in I>>>> >>
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fact
is fact>>>nil does equate>>as> NOPE>>..>>>>>>>> as nada... then is>>>
ZERO>>>>> >> >>>>>> as subtract>>> as retrovert>> as going then of
nowhere>> as DOING IN MY HEAD>>>
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so>>>>
in my own speak>>> real unique>>>> HELLO >>> GOODBYE...>>>>> >>>as WITH
many>> who are new to diary... > find all truth & honesty >>> way i
be>>>REFRESHING>>> >>> say... as wonderful>>hold all LOVE>> from my own
GOD.. >>>> > as is said.. >>>>> I WILL>>. as>> YOU WILL>> >> then as
be>>> as close to me>>> in diary>>> as>>> granted permit... to pass
go>>.. >> > not as for>> eternity>>>>>>>>or > made up neat>>>> with st
pete...>>>>>>>>>>>..>>>>> > could be as hot>> as non exotic>>> another
way to say.. >>>take a shovel>>>>>you will need>>>>> BUT>>>>>> better
where >>> is cold>>> >>> as cool>>> is better way to be>>> >>>>>>
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&
you do ask >>> AS NEW TO DIARY>>> about >>> seminar on words>>> >as
of GOODBYE..>>> did make you cry..
when illustrate with song as beautiful>>>>>
> as
DANCE>>> >>>>>> but words are
relative to situate>> goodbye could be the happiest.. if leaving place
don't want to be>>>>.. as PRISON >>> > say >> incarcerate>> or when
evil then is but in your face...>> on your case>>>... >>> SAY>>>four
letter word >> that rhymes with duck>>> suffiX>> off>>>> DOES ALWAYS
SURE AS WORK>>>> >>>> but to be as then as diplomatic>>>..>>GOODBYE.. >
betta>>> >>>my own GOD..... then not need>>>.. to STUFF HIS EARS>>>...
with little plugs>>> to muffle all of sweary words>>>>>>>>>>
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when
said> of touch>>> must be>. as this>>> as hands to brain>>> as MINE>>>>> do
as then relate>>> as musician...>>> composer...>> say my name.. Lizzie
Lane>>>. or then again>>>>>> a certain way with words. I got>>> as gifted
from my own GOD>>.. >>they then become as beautiful>>> for ears to hear>>>
as lyricist>>> when write>>. as dynamite>>> >>>>>
my own GOD >>>>>> 5
senses...>>GIVEN... >>> should be SIX>>> all are part of thee>> for
free>>>>>> >>>>& if one is ever compromised... as happens sometimes>>>
as Beethoven>>> be profoundly deaf...>> TOUCH DID DUBL UP ... to
COMPENSATE>>> WE KNOW OF THIS FROM HISTORY>>> so as>>
lips to lips>>> for all within this world>>> is way to show >> as
demo>>> all of love>>> be certain of>>>>> is called a kiss>>>> the
ultimate of TOUCH>>> >> & the TASTE>> is but >>> the sweetest
>>>>>> BLISS>>> >> heaven cannot better ..>>>> >>>>>THIS>>>>> THEN
AGAIN... as say>>>AMEN>>>>>AS>> gone... as good>>> >>> as paradise>>>
>>>>
as hypnotized...>>
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...
good morn.. love just grows... as more... all who come to read the
feed..>> hold the deepest need...>>>>>> & say as compliment... when click
fingers... as of mouse... >> then as magic>>>or as genie in a bottle>>
there by grace of google>>>>>>.. a page of Lizzie Lane is born>>... & is
compliment when >. say>>> does reach always>>>as one to one... in truth &
honesty... every word...is shared as globally>>> so what i do this moment
time... >>>do rise & shine..>>> but reality ... > am sleepy head>>>.. would
rather just as stay in bed>>
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>
killer cell>> count must've been so low>> to be as zero>>>>>>..>> when first
did test... as scientists...
..then
at>>... 79>> test TWO YEARS ON>>> of ceftriaxone...>>>>& last time round.. at 3
years >> CEF>> ..>>>> had grown steadily>>> NK cells were 233...>>>>
have lost
the edge on this.. >may have slipped as lost my grip>>>>>>>> because of hellish
stress... allowed of virus waken up...>>>>> NEVER WAS I TRUBLD... SINCE DAYS B4
DIAGNOSE>>> so this virus now does re attack>>> lives endemic.. in the
blood>>>>. almost every one> of us>>>>> >> .. your own immunity.. protects...
as>>>> totally>>> >>>>>>>>>>> normal be...,>> in thee>>>>700...> NK> cells>>>>
mine impaired on levels>>>>.>> but I FIGHT AS FIGHT TO WIN>>> AS ALWAYS>>
SO now am
ill>>> aciclovir doing job of nk cells>>>understand>>> REASONING>>> >> but
please believe nuttin beats.. >>your own natural immunity..>>>> that neuro B
destroyed in me.. >>>>>>if infection had been got when lyme disease.. > would
not have gotten... neuro B...> BE IMPOSS>>> please> comprehend..>>THE
RARITY....>>>>> as bang bang bang a world gone>>> so> be as simpliS as ABC>>
two very different entities>>> >.
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>&
LISTEN.. READ >> & LEARN>>> WHEN>>>>>> INFECTION then is IN THE
BRAIN>>>>>>>>IMMUNITY IS EVERYTHING>>>>>
repeat as mantra ..PAST
IS PRESENT... UNTIL>>> BETTER BE>>>>> >>>THEN >>> CAN FORGET AS
TOTALLY>>>>> HOPE & PRAY>>
>
IS
REASON I WILL GO AWAY>>> HAVE WHAT HAS BEEN DENIED OF ME>>>> >>>>FOR
LONGEST EVER>>> >>>>>> HOLIDAY>>>
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>
>
when so very ill>>> as dummy dolly longest time>>> is as testament.. >>
that all i have is love... for all>>>when you think the ratio of..>>> been
more at hospital than average person... >> will as ever> be.. in>>>several
life times..<>> actuality>>> & so is incredible>>> been scarce of any
situate... under such heavy concentrate...> all I ever do... is care...
about others always>>> so >. as tidy..complete as after me...& as SpA did
say >>was wonderful>>> & that did also keep an eye on my own drug.. save my
nurses yet more work>>>>>
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www.lizzielanemusic.com
if never ever see>>> does love.. then fade>>>>>>as die..>> as
goodbye>>>...> or is it this>>> as sacre bleu >>>> there was only every
always...> you.. >> >>> as finger tips to nippy toes>>> love as deeper
grows>> but needs the feed... as nurturing..>>> CAUSE in my world>> less
you 4get>>>>TOUCH IS EVERYTHING>>> >>.. or as my favourite song...> the one
that KEEPS ME STRONG.. TO FIGHT ON...>> as high on wire all alone>>> doing
ceftriaxone>>>
listen... this>>>>
to these words>>> my own interpret of>>>>> as I'd go hungry... I'd go
blind>> as deep within my inner mind...> then filed as precious...
intrinSic memory.. but if were never there to care>> then how can you as
then be filed>>>>>>>> if you could read of mine. >>my mind>>>..>>>would see
> as clear>>> >> is all about simplicity>>>>>>> as when you love you don't
let go... regrets are yours forever more...>>>> & how you know if be in
love>>>with respect is easiest....>>> when your mind is with as constantly>>
that person becomes as so important... >>all consuming...>>>> never leaves
your thoughts...>> from first you wake>> till then you sleep.. & even when
you do you DREAM.. of they>> you're holding touching...>>> as so close>>>
that when you wake feel so alone>>>> if are not with..>> > as never see...
you will miss as to the point of going crazy....
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LIZZIE
LANE... YOU MAKE US LAUGH SO VERY MUCH... WITH YOUR TAKE ON SWEARY WORDS>>>
>> only you could get away with this>>> that your own GOD >>>DOES STUFF HIS
EARs...>>> & GIVE OF THEE>> PERMIT TO SAY>>> AMEN KISS KISS>>> >>>>>WHAT A
GIRL>>> YOU MAKE this WORLD>>>>>>> far less dull>>>>>>
well let me say
to all who mail>> & ALL & ALL AS VIRTUAL>>>> its good to know you do
appreciate>>> & the accolade is mutual>>>
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SO
fdf say to me>>> as going away>>> THAT she had fullest day in A&E never
did get to see>>> ME>>>> was reason did go of late>> to hospital>>>
yet so sad...>> no chanZ...>> for her to say hello> to I>>>>> but SHE
came & nicked of my TV from ward 4...>> >>> as take away>>> to hdu>>>
cut backs >>> on the nhs... suppose>>>>>> share & share of every... >>>
FING>>>>>soon it will be beds...>>> >> >>> depends as who as sharing
with>>>>> I DO JOKE OFCOURSE... so PUHLEASE don't ASK IF THIS IS SO>>
this page is clean.. as squeaky be... not XX... >>>>> as>> rated>>>>
edgy...or full turned on as sexy>>>>>>> go elsewhere on world wide
web...>>>> Lizzie Lane... is cleanest page>>> in all a world>>> own GOD
would not allow>> perverts of the world unite...>>> GO FIND ANOTHER
SITE>>
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for all you say... >> when mail>>>> my diary>>>>of my ability... to
interpret musically>>>
FEELINGS accurate for diary...this is aspect that you love>> that &
way i always be...>>as SPEAK UNIQUE...>>> as> FULL OF LOVE FOR THEE &
ME>>>
... & then
again... when all is said... & all is done... will you be my only
one...>>> as hair as eyes... >>>> as old levis... WITH kisses that do
MAGNETIZE>>>> OR HYPNOTIZE>>> MUCH better than >>> OF ANY.>>>>
therapy....>>>>> for all of TRAUMATIZE...>> AS>>> try this for
size>>>>> > as sacre bleu... >>> as only ever always you... as finger
tips...>> to nippy toes>>. then as deeper love does grow>>>> >>>> &&& my
arms are big enuf... strong enuf... to wrap around... with all of love
... your body... & your heart..>>>
& if as you>>
THEN be >>as wanting more... & is allowed for me to say..>>> WITH MUCH
OF MUCHNESS ACTUALLY...>>>>>>>>I WILL love of thee as endlessly>>. as
BIG as THIS... as kiss kiss kiss... >>> THEN AS YOU WILL ALSO>>> be>>
>MADE
IN HEAVEN TOTALLY >> as fullest circle then complete>>. as i love
you >> will you love me>>>>
as
I am <>>not then alone...>>>
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but then again... what matters most... is that I
do know... am here because of twist of fate so powerful from own GOD & his
legislate... & the story then of Lizzie Lane be certain of... could
be told by Hollywood.... as Google.. youTube>>> say it will>>> are on the
case... >> they select.. >>>they hold in grace... & indeed am
fortunate..>>>. that they adore all of my work>> as Lizzie Lane>>>> my
talent to they is obvious.>>>.. better go>>> as climb on wire... ever
higher...>
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&
in the scheme of things...>> is nuttin much to do as with...>>> how long you
been on this planet they call earth>>>>>> 2 or 102... matter not... exit
slot as say...>>>> takes when own GOD decides appropriate>>>..>>> & then you
are on your own facing day of reckoning...>>>>>>> ...>>> chronologically is
zero rate...>>> physiology accurate of state >>>other things kick
in... as FATE...
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&
messing with ... >> you make me laugh.. as say.. ivana hair> Lizzie... were
as you> STRAIGHT OUTTA BED >> you guess CORRECT...>>> AS PROBABLY> on THAT
DAY... picked up guitar & just played... >>>> WELL ATLEAST IT be MY
OWN...>>>>>> not as cheryl COLEs>>> as with l'oreal was sued>>> by
advertising standards.>> they mislead.. with lie >> was outta of CHINA...
hers >>> by the by.. extensions GROWN.. GLUED ON...>> as said mine is all my
own... & now is better than was..>> AS HEALTHIER>>> of then... but when
fighting for a world is way LOW IN RANKINGS... compar as to necess..>> shall
we say>>> for cef >>> which plays havoc WITH my FOLLICLES...>>> as cef...TRY
AX OWN... where had better go>>> but THEN AGAIN>>> cannot get out my
home..>> as road is blocked delivery truck ..>> AS BUILDERS BUILD NEW
OPERATING >>>>> >>>> THEATRE NEXT TO ME.. >>surrounded I>>>> BY all of
medical>>> >> my home it be... yet none did see.. what happen to me... as
die b4 their eyes compre>>>>
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I
know what matters in my world>> comprehend thru all & all >>> whats happened
to my brain.. & i am richer by far in every way>>> that most... will ever
be... unless they had the same..>>>>.so have greatest understanding
shared>>>>> is wonderful to feel all of depth emotional>>>.. what is hard is
relearning all>>> as alone>>>
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re seminar on words as TRY... >>>& so many mail &
say.. Lizzie you are the girl>>>comedian>>> fabulous>>... & fun.. to be as
with>>> as virtual>>> please please share your world >>>..>
make us laugh.. until we cry.. >>when say as similar to this>>>..
>>>repeat as mantra WITH SIMPLIS>>>>>>>your hair your
eyes...>>>TRY >>>THIS FOR SIZE.>> & with . >kiss kiss> kiss > you're
hypnotized
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BUT.
my emotions are in baby state... & songs are brot..>>> to heal a
heart... to build a world>>as many mail ... to share & say>>>>
you comprehend &
understand... as globally...>> >> touch my heart as totally>>>with
saying this... as simpliS...>>> >>>
hello Liz...>> & I
recip with kiss kiss...>>
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>
&
german doctor also very ill>>> same as i.....>>. said every time he
stopped of cef>>>> neuro B back on attack>>>>> destroying all his world
his life... >>>but not disrupt as bad as mine.. >>> coz he is doctor>>>
could self prescribe..all medicate>>> keep him safe.. his own blood
tests>>>> is where fluconozole became as part of plan... >>>& I will
fight with this >> to win>>>>>>you understand... tho it make me feel as
very ill ...>>> will go along with this at first... as long as all & all
of medical>>> my doctors... >>>> keep closest eye on I>>> ... my
blood... as tests... give me confidence...>>> >>> this never ever ending
fight has put enormous strain ... & if had not been financially ..>>>.
strong & sound to pay for all then I would be as made up neat with st
pete...>>>> & homeless too>>> as others be>>>..>> many in USA... CANADA
>> GERMANY>>>> lost all to neuro B... >>>those they loved & more... >>>
>>> >>... when come this far ..>>>. fighting war>>>>
is it so
wrong... so terrible >>>>to want my own world >>> my own destiny.
restored>>> cannot go back... all...denied...>>>so emotional>>> for
I>>>> >
& still got pain
as bullet deep within my brain this night...>>>... but only since
fluconazole is mixed as in with all other drugs...>>>> ... the first few
days could not cope... so bad it was>>>>>>... & feeling weak.>> could
barely breathe... ... but now is more on fluctuate depending on
organisms there... as desperate to feed >>>
> forgotten...
had I not... my neighbour...>>vet did say... they coil down as tight to
hide... >>>>evade of death... but at some point THEY GOT TO EAT>>> TO
FEED TO STAY ALIVE >>> & is when they MULTIPLY>>> DEADLY EVIL
PARASITES... so it opens wide to do of this. >> from tightly coiled
cyst...>>>> where nuttin can but reach or kill>>> when has evolved .>>>.
not even cef.>>powerful>>> as it be>>>>.. unless ofcourse
spirochete..>>>>. opens up..>>>>>>. & then when does >>>>it dies>>>>
but death throws make it multiply..>>>>. to sustain its chain >>>>of
life...>>> BUT fluconazole does attack the outer protein shell when as a
cyst...>>> in a kind of softening.. >> even if it stays as tight>>> as
shut...>>> wont open up..>>>. it will die ... & oh the pain I feel >>>is
as i say... >>>>as once a time... thought.. living this...>>> was normal
>>>>>> an entire world with same... >>> as on attack>>>>> as 6inch
nails... hammered home levered out exact same force... or then again
simpliS to say... is as a bullet ricochet... as in the brain...>>> &
ear pain is babesia >>> must do as ditto ..>>>fluconazole>>>>. to kill
these organisms born in hell>>>
but I >>4got did
I not.>>>>.. that my neighbour vet did say.. they always have to
feed... their life cycle does depend >>>... & if they should as open
up>>> & no drug... is there>>> as in the brain...>>>> then all of hell
kicks off again...>>>
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...
you
see confusion is >>>>>>what is lonely.??.. what is alone>??... what is
isolate ???... what is solitary...>???>> & can be in the busiest place
of all a world & still be so alone...>> with no one... >>>>& then again
can find it but impossible to escape the suffocating pressures
of...>>>>>> i know all & all about the brain...>>> & much is locked
within of same...>>> here is the key ... you unlock >>>>>> the greatest
minds there ever be >>>>>preferred a sense of isolate to some as always
in their face..>>> telling them of this & that...>> what & when as they
must do>>123... you can breathe... cos i say>>>> get my drift>>> they
then live their life as by a clock>>> >>> as commuter they become>>>
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so
I digress.....>>>> is as crowding out their precious thoughts>>>> & many
write as mail & others do as approach & ask>> say really kind & sweet >>
you will never be alone with me..>>> Lizzie>>> >>> but to help as
understand>>> am not alone... I got all & all of my own GOD... >> oh i
get sad>>>> but i try never to lose sight of fact>>>... & deep
relationships are too complex >>>>am not really ready yet>> am trying to
rebuild thru lyrics... songs & music score>>>..>less you 4get.. is
language of all of love... as shades & more>>>>> so> there is much as in
my mind.. & ofcourse less you 4 get...i got piccLine...>>> but would
love so much to have your friendship >>>
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love
should be as in every way... simplicity... ditto happiness...>>
> & so you love
my little prayer.. really was a steal .>>> as from
the song as beautiful>>> ... as huge in the USA >>>>but here... not
as by comparison but is hope for yet... as ALL do love>>> & when am low
just sing as soft as to myself>>> help of me to feel as close to my own
GOD >>> truth be told>>>>> change the lyrics little bit to make them
then more personal >>>
& when i do am
wrapped in love >>>from my own GOD..>>>>. as sure as when am out within
the mountains .. hills & all he gives.>>>.. not the concrete of the city
streets>>>> am.. not knocking it...>> as from the city i belong...
>>>but is> a different kind of man made >>>>>>>beauty>>>>. as lights
that twinkle in the night... as tiara very bright... can be awesome
sight... but can never rival all the stars...>>> that shine as from the
universe... as stepping stone divine... to what is yours & what is
mine..>>>>eternity sublime>>>>
>. but most
don't ever think about... they think are here for longest slot>>> sad to
say... most are not>>>... own GOD decides the path of fate..>>>>>. as
who you meet of a day...>>>
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late
lullaby..& just to say...new pik I bring & say nite nite... as so
alone...>> had faith & trust.. >>>> all of care... as blind ...to
see>>>>so naive...>>...>> ... so stupid that I be>>> & innocent...as
totally>>..>>with baby state emotionals... easy then >>>to... walk all
over me...>>>> only just my way to say... as counting up...... 14
matters much ....>> day 1165 .....>>so don't be proud ..>>>... be
ashamed... >>> for i to have relationship of any sort... would be a
joke>>>... impossible>>> just friendship of a different sort..>>>>
what would love ofcourse the most... is>>> as all of normal ordinary>>>>
& so to hurt...... as tear apart a heart>>>>>>>>>such an easy target >>
>>>>when this girl has been so very ill>>>>> others have as done of
this> for different reasons in the past.. >>but what goes around does
come around...>>>> >.. the day will come>>> when >>>>then >i pray will
better be.>>>. own GOD >>> I DO PuhLEAD>>>>> ....... to be as me>>>>>
a different girl>> ...>>>>>& then can >>>> say...know what>>>?? once
did have her in my world>>>>>>>>>>>>> & miss so very much...> all
of all>>>> her unconditional caring love>> is now gone.. >>> no longer
can i see ... or touch... or talk as with>>...>>>. >> as near... or even
... as virtual>>>>as diary>>.>>> so little prayer >>> please own GOD
HEAR>>>>>>
God will you keep me safe from the thunderstorm... when the days are
cold... will you keep me warm>>> when darkness falls... don't ever let
me be scared >>>god will you let me know that you love me so>>>when
there is no one close>>>... that am not alone >> & that my heart is
beating with yours...>>>>>>>>>.
amen kiss kiss .
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