same problem with>> heart as something interacts >
lastnight was so bad>>> but my body does as so react to something
must have taken in as inadvertent.. for a long long period of
time .>> as maybe..> was attacking me...>. who knows> but am sure
my bloods will now > as be in deep recovery> as feel so very
different. as with every single day... improving >> steadily>>. even as
from yesterday.. even as with little sleep..>> is ok is coming back.. as
natural>> as my own sub C is in recovery.. >> as getting
better..>> & my emotions also.. are complete as healing
fast.. not as baby state.. as wrecked... same thing must
have added to the problem with...>> that part of my brain.... so am now
as getting stronger every day....
.. but> as rda did say... is either virus or
a chemical>> as was there from last september...< as he watch &
question me as often as about... what am eating taking doing>>>>
when did say .. something is as knackering your bone marrow ... his own
words... & we need to find of what it is .. as soonest... >>>
when the rash did as then commence as
from its most severest then>>> as was also last september.....>
. as said of many times to he.. is only
correlation that can make.. >>
as nd seeing rash... of then.. as on the
manifest with hna who went & got in her own words>>>> nd to cast an eye
as over me>>> as felt a wee bit as some kind of specimen.. with these
words>>
but...>>>
as the rash was then becoming obvious.. was good that he as tried.. >>
& hna did say of then to me>>>>as could
be>>> neuro B as she call it lymes disease...>> & say her son had
suffered from so he had rash all over his body>>> but i said to
she... i had very different... many times.. what they call EM > as small
>>> as volcano calling card..> was not as same in any respect
to that as on my face... & did not feel in any way of neuro B to me.. or
of lyme...
> so nd no wonder he was perplexed same as
my own doctor was> but rda did see as very bad on day was
doctor of.. at hospital thank own god for.. with fdf...>> & so they know
my suffering was not in fun .. but systemic and as terrible>> so has
been this as doing this as also to my heart.. a chemical or virus...
so could as be either or.. >> as rda did clear as
say... >> but now the rash is going gone.. neutropenia... >will
also>>..>>.>>>
.>>> but still rda does diligent as search
for source.>> as taking bloods & checking... as again of other day>>>>>
& my arm so was hating>>> but am coping...>> i close my eyes as
hypnotize..
. not think about the needle as is going in... did
of this again the other day... SO rda is>. as good & decent doctor
i have ever known
& thank him for.. all of care..
so i will..>
leave it with he.. to take care of me>>>.
to search & find...>> as i get on with
recovery & recuperate.. & thinking soon to
be as ALICE i do pray...
so I wake to beautiful day.. is to
me>>> am glad am with this world to share>>>my diary...
as always..>>
& for all you say.. as mail & joke &
try to make me laugh... & TRY is NOT THE WORD... because you do ALWAYS
THIS... as Lizzie go & get mcMUFFIN BREAKFAST..>>>> now that you can
EAT... come & VISIT WE WILL TREAT...
bring me back to base.. in laughter of
a day.. best meds always>>
& to my writing partner john.. >>> who always
mails... as frequent.. as.. from london...>> don't worry..
am getting better now with surety>> can feel it happening deep within>>>
tho my heart is behaving very weird...> as
concerning>> am getting used to it as fluttering as spluttering...
as racing..>> as SLOWING when i EAT OF SUGAR OR OF FOOD>> AS NORMAL NOW
STABILIZES>>>> so I GOT GREAT EXCUSE TO EAT OF CHOCOLATE>> every cloud
has silver lining..
& as plus side
my sorest foot as did not know the cause... & never said to any except
as to my colleague...>>>as how it hurt
but has melted into
mist.. IS BETTER AS A KISS>> from fingertips to nippy toes...>>> YES AM
IN DEEPEST DEEP RECOVERY... believe>>>
>> & simply as to say to every..<<in this
world globally>>>>>> & to my own god for staying with..> am COMING
THRU the longest darkest tunnel>> to the light...> from all of suffering
& more...
> & am going out in all he gives.. not to run.. my
heart is still as not up for it... ... whatever did as upset
great... as my bone marrow be the same...>>> & so i say>>
amen kiss kiss.. am out of it
